My 20 years of life!

WoOhOoo! IT's 2008 now!! hahaha frankly! i wasn't feeling too excited or anything but it just perks me up to reflect on what i've done in my life! and i'm 21 now! i can't believe i'm 21. It seems that time has passed so quickly that i can't even grasp! I was talking to Liling thru msn and we were like reminding each other how long we've known each other! i know her since i was sec.1, she's in the same class as me! She and her Mushroom head and I and my Lion head LOl I know this is going to take quite a long time but i'm going to reflect on my 20 years of life :)

Age: 1-12 ( till primary school)

I was a rather shy and happy girl! I lived in comfort and didn't really need to care about anything. Just have fun and study hard. During that period of time is when i get to learn a lot of extra things! I got a lot of classes to attend during weekend. Just like how the drama normally shows: a mother brings her child for intensive extra classes during weekend and the little child will cry and feel so stressed. haha but not for me. i choose to learn all those stuffs :) Rather, i feel it should be my parents who feel stressed, coz they need to pay a reasonably much amount of money for all the extra classes, like music class, computer class, abacus class etc. But i really enjoyed it :)

Age: 13-16 (secondary school)

haha i can NEVER forget this period of time. This is the time when i really grow up and learn to go through ups and downs. And at the age of 13, is the time when i had my first relationship. Okay, now thinking back, 13 is a rather a young age Lol. haha but luckily my ex bf is a very nice, handsome, smart and driven person, so it is good memories afterall! :) haha Other than that, these few years are when i went through a lot of emotional struggles..where i have to meet a lot of challenges on the examinations of my own self-expectations, self-worth and self-image. But without these trials, i wouldn't have grown up as a person. No matter what, I really thank God for that :)

Age: 17-18 (Junior college)

SAJC! i can never never forget about sajc! How i love that school :) How i love my classmates S63, Kelly Yuexiang, Sompong, Sandra Yanping Grace (twinnie) Zhixian Mayling Yuanyu and so on! really loves these people! I was like..really really thank God for putting me in such a great place, with such a great bunch of people. All the great memories, from all the chionging of sushi buffets, neoprint taking, mugging to the planning of camps etc..They are the ones who really teaches me how to be myself, how to just be myself. I am who i am, and i'm uniquely made by God. I don't have to become who people want me to be :) And this is when i get to know Jesus Christ and hence from then on, He has become my best friend :)



Sharon and I. These are one of the things we do other than studying Lol Guess who is who?

Eileen, Sharon Kelly and Yuexiang!

S63 girls!haha

My gang! I love all of them! :)


Age: 19 (waiting for Alevel results)

This is the time period where i was waiting for my Alevel results and it is the first time i went out into the society to work! i had 3 jobs. 1) Pharmacy assistant in XX polyclinic 2) UOB Call Centre 3) Data Entry in XX Com. The 3 jobs are tough. Physically tough for the first job as i'm confined to a 80cm X 80cm working place, i can't really move around =X Mentally tough for the 2nd job as i've to face with many stress and demands from the customers. Emotionally tough for the 3rd job as it is REALLY BORING i tell u..i worked for 6 days and took 4 days MC. I am always sick when i'm working there. heh. But i really met very nice people in every of the 3 different jobs. Like aunties who really take good care of me, buy food for me, bosses who are really understanding, collegues whom i can hang out and have fun with! Woah..it's like, in every of the 3 jobs, God really send nice people around me to protect me. There are indeed times when i'm upset because of customers, workload and working condition, but God is really good, He is always faithful :) Through these, i've learnt to become a stronger person and it teaches me that working is full of challenges but as long as we're down to earth and genuine to people, we can break down ice wall between people and people.

Age: 19-20 (NUS)

This period of time is a time of healing! Emotional healing i would say :) for the past years, it has been really great but there are dark times that seems unshakeable. But as i always say, God is always good. He sends people to protect me and now, He sends people to help me get up. All the pain that surges in, all the depressing hurts that come back into my life again, He wants me to deal with it. Where i fall, is where i must learn to stand up. I learnt that, the more fearful we are of certain things, the more we must confront it. Only when we have learnt to confront it, then we can start to cast all fears. If we keep running away from it, the fears will keep chasing us. Praise the Lord :) He has healed me. Truly, He is Jehovah Rapha, the One who Heals :) amen! And there are many breakthroughs for me this 2 years. The most significant one i would say is being able to go SOT, this is when i really get to know more about God's Word, the power and anointing He has actually bestowed to us. I get to know many friends and through their lives, i get to see how they are being transformed and changed for the better and these are the testimonials that are really amazing!

Estelle me and willy! --> Our best team member :)

Sending Kim off. Back to Korea :)

SOT graduation!

One of the things we do during break. taking pictures or going around singing and beatboxing to people! People we know, and people we dunno. I wanted to upload a video haha of how we beatbox. tried many times but failed! So watch it by clicking here :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCFr1-DacXs

And all about Team 20 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Valr7S-HTaU&feature=related


Now looking back at my life. I have never regretted. Because all the happiness God has given me, is really from heaven. And all the sadness pain and headaches i've gone through, is to mould me to the person He wants me to be. Everyday, I want to be more and more like Jesus, how He love people, how He sacrifice for people, how he give up His life just for the people, like you and I. Achievements are very important! Be it in our academics, finances etc . But i feel, it is not the most important. To love people the way God loves, is my goal. I can never be perfect. I can never please everybody. I can never be happy all the time and just sail through my life without any upsets and challenges. But i know that, love can overcome all these. Love, not only comes from me, but is a gift from God. It is not just saying "I love you" but it is an action and attitude to be shown! :)

Welcome 2008!

sunday!

I was surfing the net about nobel prize winners and come across that the youngest person to receive a Nobel prize was William Lawrence Bragg. He was 25 years old at the time only! And the oldest person to receive the nobel prize prize was Joseph Rotblat. He was 87 years old at the time. I was like woah! There is no age limit to how much we can do for mankind yah :)

I went to church in the morning and pastor tan preached about how we should enter the new year. He mentioned many good points and like what pastor said, the way to improve myself is to start changing myself. Certainly, there are areas i'm still working on. However, the results may be obviously magnificient or unflatteringly miniature. These are the things i have to think about and how i should go about doing it. All changes begin with decision, dedication and discipline!

After service, i went to have lunch with my cell group friends.Then, Yanghong Liangwei and I went to meet Kelly and we went to PartyWorld! haha I like KTV!! But luckily they're my closer friends so i'm not restrained or stressed. had fun! and Yanghong and Liangwei disgustingly sang a love song together and look into each other eyes somemore! hahaha Luckily i've filmed it down. Maybe i can use that as a triumph card or something HEHEH... or get them to buy a good gift for my 21st bday next year in exchange for the video! but disclaimer: they're straight! and really nice peepz.

Tml is the last day of 2007! And..i'm going to be 21 soon!! I wan to stay 17 or 18 though it has long past me =X

Anyway Welcome you, 2008! :)

Thank You!

We had our subzone thanksgiving today! Everything went very well and the presence of God is so strong :) A bunch of us has been practising for the drama and praise the Lord it went good! We had only 3 days of practising and everyone really sacrifice and make time to come for the intensive practice. There are around 10+ people from different cell groups coming together for this drama and Yanghong is the director! He is really good, i tell you. hahaI didn't act this year but i was assisting Yanghong and help him and the casts in whatever ways i can. It was a "first time" for me too. As some many know, i'm not a very organized person, but this time, this has taught me to really be very detailed and tidy. yesterday, we practised till quite late and a few of us left SMU (our practice place) at 1130. We were like rushing for the last train home and praise God, we managed to! On my way home, I've asked Liangwei to help me find songs and he is really very effective, found them very quickly. haha he was waiting for me to go home so that he can transfer the songs to me and when i reached home around 1245, Yanghong and i were frantically messaging him online! But there is no reply! haha when i called him, he had actually fallen asleep while waiting for us to reach home LOL

Yanghong transferred me the songs till very very late..around 2,3am. I couldn't take it anymore and told him to call me to wake me up when the songs are done and he too, had difficulty staying awake. haha

so the next day, means today is the drama performance! It is the first time i'm the Sound woman lol..I'm not a high tech person so when i was rehearsing with them with the music, there is not even 1 time i get the whole thing right. i was so stressed!! But during the actual performance, everything went well and for the first time, i got the timing right! i was like so happy!! haha

Boonkiat preached something that is really very powerful and practical for us to apply. He said that throughout the whole year, there are bound to be challenges that we have not overcome yet, but when entering the new year, 2008, we shall focus not on the failures or regrets but on the blessings and victories we have gotten! :)

This year has been really very exciting for me! Indeed, there are disappointments, but i believe the coming 2008 will be an even greater year! I will continue to press on for the visions and goals :)

Blessings to be counted, Thank God for
1) SOT, which i went in the beginning of the year. It's a miracle that my parents actually allow!
2) Friends around me :) From my secondary, sajc, uni, cg, sot, chc friends. You've really made a difference in my life! Especially to Meiqi, Boonkiat, Dwayne --> people who inspires me and they are ones whom i can really trust.
3) Pa, mummy and kor who really loves me and my life wouldn't have been the same without them! all the laughters, jokes, fun times, understanding that i've gotten from you all.
4) Opportunities to work with different people and learn a lot of the experiences and from them.
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and the list goes on!

2008 will be a better year! No matter what discouragement i've gone through, i know that it is the vision that will sustain me, Same goes for u friends :)

Love is a gift

Sometimes when i 'm alone on bus, or mrt, or when i'm listening to some songs. i teared. I don't know if you have experienced that feeling before. It is the feeling of being so overwhelmed by the love you have gotten. The love that is so divine, the love that is by grace, the love that is a gift from above. I just felt so blessed that i'm living and the breath of life is being blown onto me. Truly, Love is a blessing. We are loved so that we can love. Many times we go through heartaches or separation from friends, boyfriend, or even family members. But I always remember the love that I've gotten is poured on me so unconditionally. A love that is so pure, innocent and clean. A love that has no ulterior motive. Being loved for no reason, not because who i am or what i have..But because He just loves me. A love that is so straightforward. He loves me because he just love me. I want to love just like Him.

I thank God because i'm alive. All riches, wealth and fame can't buy this love. I love u Jesus. and I love you all my family and friends.All things on earth cannot buy or take away this love i have for you all. It is a precious gift. A gift that i will protect for life.

Now, i just felt that to be alive is such a blessing. Only when we live, then we can change lives.
Love. 4 letters. But it contain so much.

Jesus Christ, my Best Friend

I have a friend, called Jesus. He is someone whom i can trust, rely and fall back on. Sometimes when I think i'm at the bottom of the pit, He is the one who lifts me up. When i'm in my sorrow and pain, He is the one who calms my heart and overwhelms me with all His love. The relationship between me and Him is amazing . Many times, i feel like giving up, not wanting to continue to pursue the vision that He has given me but He is always there, strengthening, encouraging and showing me. There are times when i think i cannot do it and question why He ask me to do it, He always shows me the answers. I admit defeat. Defeat. Defeat that i cannot live without Jesus. He is my strength, my guidance and my pillar of support. I know He loves me so much and every tear that i dropped, He keeps it in a bottle and every joy that i exude out, He is giving me thumbs up. I dance, i jump and i leap in Your Name!! My leader, my Father, my Best friend, my Confidante and my Playmate! Thank You Jesus :)

God is a God of miracles, i experienced many of His miraclous blessings. Blessings that could not have happened without Him.

Who am i but to find myself in You.
You're the light who shows me where I am
You picked me up from where i fall
And from there, i stand up and testify your goodness.

Who am i but to see myself in You.
In eyes of a child, the Father is always there.
You set an example for us to follow.
The path You have set for me.

Who am i but to be myself in You.
I looked into the eyes of yours, and see your glory.
Streams of love, peace and joy you've given
Into the once-empty heart of mine

Who am i but to find my vision in You.
A world shaker and history maker i wanna be
In your power, i charge forth.
Slaying all fears and doubts

Jesus, Jesus,
Who am I?
A child of God i would say. A lover of God i would say. And..God's lover i would say..

Jesus, welcome to your Birthday Party today :)

I love both my Fathers!

It's going to be Christmas soon! i love Christmas! i love to watch all the Christmas special tv programmes too haha. My dad bought my mum a ring for Christmas and he wanted to surprise her, hence, he had put the ring in a red sock, his own ones. i told him specificially, RED SOCK. later in midnight, he will place the red sock at my mum's bed side! so when she wakes up, she can see it. lol. That's what i love about my dad. He is a very sarcificial person. He sacrifices a lot to provide for us and he has never once complaint about his work to me. Thank God for my pa! So, i asked my dad, " papa, u bought mummy a present, did you buy a present for me too? i want a ring too!" Then my dad is like, "Please, small girls dun wear rings, u wait till u're 21 then i give you one." I was like.."FINE pa, thanks for honouring me by STILL calling me a small girl. " haha I love my pa!

Christmas, we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ :) My Lord and Savior. God gave His only begotten Son to us. His most precious.

That is what i like about God. He does things by being an example Himself so that we can emulate :) Since He gave His most precious, we should too, shouldn't we? I feel that we can seize this opportunity to thank our loved ones for all the sacrifices and love they've given to us! And we ourselves, should do something, something that is precious to thank them :) Like..part my money to buy them some gifts! haha

Late!

I'm back home! This week has been crazy! i have been home everyday at midnight. And it's those kind..gotta rush and chase after the last MRT or bus de. But well, it has been a great week. Have been meeting up my friends and stuffs. When school starts, i dun think we've the time to do that.

We met up with Sandra last night at Village for a farewell dinner with her. She's going to Canada for SEP and is leaving right after Christmas! i will surely miss this darling! She's such a blessing to my life la :) Know her since JC and we always see each other frequently, now that she's going away, i will feel a bit weird tho. After eating dinner, we all chill at nydc and end up forgetting the time and had to really dash across the streets to catch the last train and praise the Lord! We did it heh.

okays! This is my cell group. From the front right anticlockwise: Sandra, Rac, Me, Yanping,Gab, Dan, Boonkiat, Mich, Char and Jo

haha our precious darling Sandra and Sarah!

I went to meet Char and Rac today for Bs. They are such a darling to me too! they are young, only 16 years old. And when i'm with them, the fact is i'm much older but i dun feel the age gap. either they're mature like me, or i'm still kiddy. lol..after that i went to meet dwayne and yanghong at nus. we went to find our friends in the halls. haha had a great time. great time catching up and great time spending most of our time walking and trying to find the halls as the bus services are -_-

Well, i think i need more beauty therapy, can i? my face is going to sag soon at the rate i'm staying out and sleeping late.

God! My Christmas wish this year : Birdnest, Spas, beauty therapy, nice clothes!! :)

Clinic!

I went out with my uni friends just now. Sunyao Liyuan and the rest. haha It is a good day! i haven't seen Sunyao for like months and Liyuan, chang han n Liwei ever since school days. We wanted to go to Clark Quay, one of the pub-restaurant "Clinic". After much walking, seeking and finding, we finally found that pub! It is a really unique place. The chairs are wheelchairs and the tables are operation tables. And the drinks are served in drips packets ( just like the sugar/blood drips). Upon sitting down and looking at the menu, we were like "eEEK!" haha coz the price is so high! 1 packet of drip (drinks) cost $50!! oh man, i'd never spend that much of money on a drink. heh. so we quickly sneaked away and went to somewhere else and yuantai sugguested TCC. After few mins of waiting, we all went in and yeaaahhh haha everyone is so comfortable. Gabriel still said "Here is where we belong" and yes, haha i agree totally. We just chill there for somewhile.

Upon reaching home, i remember i gotta help Yanghong do something and i just finished it. I am so tired and my nose is giving away its signals. But well, it is good to be tired in a fulfilling and fun way! don't you agree??? :)

I Love WML!

Today is WML day! Went to meet liling, Wendy and gang! We had our KTV session. It is fun! They are my secondary school great friends. lOl I remember during our secondary school days, we seldom call our friends their names. We just call each other ah neh or neh oi. No offence or anything. but it had become part of our lives! Even till now, when i see some of my sec. sch friends in uni, they also shouted neh oi across! lol..

I saw Leliang today too. And the first thing i told him was, "did you grow taller again?" I wonder if it's because i seldom see him. but i remember meeting him like 1,2 months ago. Well, seeing my old friends today made me feel very comforted. It's like, we dun see each other very frequently, even for wendy and liling, my dear girls, i dun meet them always, but i just feel very very comfortable and joyful meeting them! Some things change over time but some things don't. We 're still as crazy as before! Recording our beatbox in the middle of nowhere in mrt station and stuffs! haha. I'm thankful to God giving me friends like them. It's not just the fun we had, but it's the things that we had gone through together before, that made our friendship strong. i know, they are always the 2 special friends i will have in my life forever. Nothing can change that fact in my heart :)

The fun memories!

Before i started my own blog, i always wonder why do people blog. Now i know. Because i wanna keep all the memories :) haha Here are some of the genting trip pictures! from Sompong's camera.



Here we are! the 8 of us. The first day upon arrival at Genting.

Aren't we cute?? But look at the really act cute boy there lol.

We and the car! It is so freezing cool outside but for the sake of the car! It looks like lamborghini but isn't!

But it's okay, it's MINE! i shall wei3 qu1, a real lambo will come my way soon!

hahaha we wanna act emo. BUT too misty, so we decided to move out.

Isn't this better??

This is the killer pirate ship that made me tear!!! *BEFORE*

And..*AFTER*

hahahah the wind the wind! How romantic it is! My shawl and Angie's jacket can fly! Can u see a ghostly figure behind?! lol

Sompong is very busy behind. He is the ghost and the wind LOl

Here we are! 3 beauties and 1 loanshark at the back.

We are supposed to take a all girls picture. BUT i dunno what are we all doing at the back. Sandra and Kelly are in front looking great!

Sompong and I. I think he's the funniest friend i ever had! With him, i can easily have 6 pacs just by laughing!

hahaha Look at Sandra on the left. She's one of my nicest n funniest girl friends! and Yuexiang on the right! My dearie partner in crime ah niang ever since J1:) We eat together, slack together, laugh together, go toilet together, chiong for bball tournament together! Grace at the left back, very cheerful girl!

Pretty Kelly and Hamster look-alike sompong!


The level of splasticity increases from the right to the left. just LOOK!


Kelly and I. We were on Ferris wheel!!

We just like taking pictures!! haha love this girl.

Here we all! happy!

Our trip! :)

i just came back from genting! Even though it is a very short trip, only 3 days 2 nights, but every minute is being played to the fullest! 8 of us went together :)

Our journey started at 8am and we reach genting at 3pm. it's a 6,7 hours ride and we sat till our whole body ache but it's worth it! Upon reaching genting, we felt tired, but excited!! After checking into First World Hotel, We decided to walk around and have a good meal to reward ourselves for the perserverance to endure the 7 hours ride! haha Jiewei's aunt who happened to be in genting wanted to treat us dinner, we're almsot tempted to it but it's not very nice as there are many of us! So, we ourselves went to the International buffet at resort hotel there, it's worth all the money! However, my favorite seafood are not there at all. We ate till our stomach almost bursted!

The second day, we bought our ticket to go to the theme park! i'm excited! Before going outdoor, we were in the indoor, there is a very pretty merry-go-round. Just like the one in the korea drama, "Stairway to Heaven", just that it is smaller. 6 of us, all the girls, wanted to ride that, most importantly, take pics! Then we went to quene. Then the person in charge of the ride says we cannot ride. We were like "WHY??!" Then Sandra still outrightly stand out and show her the wrist band! Then she said, "I'm sorry, this ride is only for children". We were like.....PAISEH! Sompong and Jiewei, who was actually right outside the quene waiting for us, ran away so quickly! What a friend! lol

Then, we went outdoor, even though i know i can't play most of the rides, but i still wanna go in and enjoy the atmosphere..muahaha..the first ride that we had is VIKE. It looks seemingly unthreatening, but trust me, it's NOT!! the 8 of us are split into 2 groups. Sompong's team and Myrna's team. They all know that both of us are scared of vike! Hence..the team that screams the most wins! lol..then, when it's our turn, we , the 2 groups sit opposite each other so that we can each other's expression. Then, the safety bar is locked. i'm like..."ARGH." I hang on to Yuexiang and Grace's hand as I was sitting in between them and when it starts and reaches its peak, i was sooooo scared till i couldn't even open up my eyes to see and mouth to scream!! i hid my head on Grace's shoulder and ended up tearing lol..In the middle of the ride, Sandra and Yuexiang was like.."Myrna! you okok!? If not okay must say! You okay??" i can't even open up my mouth and i just shake my head. When everything is over, i heaved a sigh of relief ...it's so paiseh! But it's alright, at least i tried this HIGH element, isn't it? Then, some of the "gan ho" ones went to take the high elements like roller coaster while some of us, like me went to play ahem..Teacups and Ferris Wheel. I screamed like mad when we are taking the Ferris Wheel! The wind is quite strong and it is situation up on the hill so means i can see almost everything from up there. I held on so tightly to the metal bar!

After playin in the theme park, we ate and went back to the hotel rooms to rest as we have a performance by "FLYERS" ( i think ) and a movie to watch. However, Sompong and i are so energetic that we went back to play this card game SNAP, Angie is with us too :) It's a VERY exciting game, needs a lot of concentration, speed, lung power and voice loudness. hahaha as all of us who know Sompong, he laughs as if he roars and since we know each other in JC, i conclude that he has very big lungs! The moment he breathes in, he sucks in all my oxygen!! We screamed like mad to the extent that both of us hyperventilated! and lack of oxygen! As my room is in the middle of the 4 rooms that we have, when we roars, the rest of our friends who are sleeping are being awakened. Lol

Then we all went to watch the performance by the FlYERS at 9pm. Its a staged drama + acrobatics + magic and i tell u! it's quite boring =X I was feeling very sleepy already but i felt really bad to sleep in this kinda threatred performance. I turn to my right, Angie is already nodding her head off. I turn to my left, Yuexiang is already sleeping very soundly. I was like, "Okay, time to sleep!" and i slept almost throughout the show. It ended around 10,11pm and we went out of the hall thankfully lOl. as we are watching a movie, The legend or sth by Will Smith at 145am, there's still some time left. so the rest of them went to take the indoor roller coaster while Sandra and i went walking around, ended up we went to take the indoor Ferris Wheel, it turns very quickly at a high speed! i dunno why too. then when we went out, i was so freaked out that i screamed like there's no one! Sandra is so freaked out by me. She helped me take pictures while we were in the container and when it's my turn to help her take, my hands are shaking quite badly that she's scared that i will throw her camera out.lol Above us is another container, and the guys in there keep shouting to us, "heys, xiaojie, dun be afraid! dun look down, dun scared!" It's super dui lian -_-" I know it's something to be overcomed! Heights. i'm trying :) Then we went to take the Reindeer, it's like a small vehicle on the track that is quite high above the ground and it just goes around the shopping centre. only 2,3 person can sit on it. I felt so unsecured as it has no cover! Suddenly, the reindeer doesn't move at all and it stopped there for quite a long time. I turned to Sandra, "Sandra, can't be that shui ba..JIU MING AH!!" and my palms really sweated like no business. around 10 reindeers are behind us and we can't move! Then, a very brave technician just climb over the tracks and reindeers to the very front to push and move it and praise the Lord! it moved!! haha we met up with the rest at around 1230am and talked till it's around 130am to go for movie

After watching the movie,it's already very late and we all slept around around 4am plus. The next morning, Angie, Yuexiang Kelly and I woke up on time at 830am and are ready to go for dim sum with the rest but they are still sleeping! So we decided to go without them muahaha..upon reaching the restaurant, called "hao2 you3 ji4 " Resort hotel, our stomachs are giving a thumb up signal for choosing food over sleep! lol...we order a lot of food and ate so much till i felt so tortured! lol..but the dim sum is really very very good! We took pics, wanting to show off to the rest! hahah

This trip is fantastic! We spent most of our money on good food and utilized all our energy on laughing and playing like nobody's business! And also, took a lot a lot of pictures! great trip! i really enjoyed it, especially with this group of crazy peeps!And all the stupid things that we do, i love them all :)

My first times

This week has been tiring but tired in a good way and for a good cause! We had the BreakAway camp :) It is really good, i get to know my friends more and get to see their chou3 details. lol..Dun look at them..being so intellectual, or cool, or quiet..it is all FAKE! haha they've a lot funny yet admirable charactistics in them!hahaha

My #1 first time:
I shared my personal testimony with the rest of the 2 subzones on the 3rd day. The waiting time to go up and share is the most nervous times. But when i went up, praise God! my vision suddenly become super duper blur that i couldn't see anyone on the floor. That helped to calm myself down to speak. This is the first time i share my testimony with many people on how God has changed my life. Not many people know my full testimony, only 3,4 people knew while some only know parts, but this time round, i share with them full, but not in details :) It takes me quite a lot of courage to share and it isn't easy for me. But few months ago, in SOT, God already showed me a vision that i'll be sharing my testimony in front of many people and amongst the people, many girls will be touched and i will be able to identify with the things in their heart. That time, I was telling God that I am scared because if i share, means that everyone will know what happened, i will become so exposed. But if that is what God has told me to do, i will do it as he will be giving me the courage and boldness to speak. Before the session starts, Pauline came to me and ask if i'm comfortable with what i'm going to say. I told her with tears in my eyes that i'm scared. She edited some sensitive parts and praise God, i managed to finish saying everything without any fear on stage. That night, a few girl friends smsed me saying that the things i shared are also their darkest secret and pain in their life..and that my testimony has touched them. Really thank God :)

My #2 first time:
My friends and i were involved in a car accident. After the camp break,which is around 9,10pm, we left the school compound and went to Thomas there to eat prata. After eating, our friend, SS, being a gentleman, wanted to send all girls who are living in the West home. Then as we were turning into SLE, a taxi appear from nowhere and hit our car from the opposite direction!! Everything happened very fast and very suddenly! I could not see any car coming on our way untily my 2 girl friends -Cheuk and Yanping screamed! Then, i saw a taxi coming on our way and 1 second later, it hit onto SS's car! Then, we were very shocked. Like..What happened??? We went out to see. The front left side of our car is really badly smashed. the tyre gave way, the light mirrors all gone and everything just dented in. So means that the impact must be really quite big actually! But me and yanping, who were sitting at the back, didn't put seat belt, yet when the 2 cars hit, we were not being thrown forward at all. just that yanping phone flew away from her hands. Also, the impact is really very near to Cheuk's seating place. If either car moved 0.1s faster, Cheuk would have been realy seriously injured. BUt the damaged spot only stopped right before the passenger's door. It is really God's protection :) Luckily no one's hurt. The taxi had a passenger and he hurt his head but there's no bleeding, but for precaution sake, we still called the ambulance to come.

Everything happened too fast. No one is to be blamed in the car. And we didnt know what really happened. Like how come a taxi suddenly appeared right from the opposite side. coz the roads are empty and straight. After that, Boonkiat, Pauline and Dwayne came and be with us.

I just thank God for his protection and miraculous intervention that no one is hurt. Praise the Lord. It is my first time being in a car accident.. So lessons learnt. Please please please wear seat belts!!!

yes!over!

I end my exams today!! i thought i would have felt very happy and relaxed, for i've been longing for this moment, but now, i just felt very normal. In fact i was very -_-" by my last paper just now. By nevermind, i can do nothing about it now, so i shall just enjoy myself for the next 5 weeks!

For the past few weeks, i have been staying at home almost everyday to study. As the land area of my house is not that big - no where to walk about, plus, i've been sitting down almost the whole day and in addition, other than studying, there's nothing i can do except eating! I have been eating non-stop for the past few weeks and chocolate is the most unbearable seducer.

Wells, i am really going to rest and let my hair down and play for the whole holidays! It's time to reward ourselves! :) lalala and shopping is the best therapy, agree?!

You're Beautiful

This week is study week! i have been doing on my music composition assignment last night till 2,3am, it's almost done. And today, i will be alone at home. my brother goes to school to study, my dad works, my mum goes to malaysia to visit my granny. For me, it's so weird to wake up to find no one is at home.

However at times, i feel its good to be alone for a while. Like..we spent time with our friends, family but very seldom do we spend time with ourselves. It is a time when we quieten ourselves and just be you and you alone. Like for me, after a long day of school or play and fun, i actually like to take bus or mrt alone when going home. It's not that i like to be isolated, i dun! haha i like to be with people, interact and have fun together! :)

By the way, some random thoughts... i think..there are 2 categories of people:
1) Love themselves so much so as to forget to love others
2) Love and care about others but forget to love themselves

How many times do we feel irritated, angry and frustrated with some other people that we feel like boxing them? How many times do we feel as if that person who is standing right in front of you is just like a assassin trying to kill you with all his underhand means??

We all feel that way before right? Hey, don't read as if i'm talking something that is so alien huh!
I do feel that way sometimes too, even up to the brim of crying and breaking down. But in our anger, do not speak and do of detrimental acts yah! :)

However, how many a times we feel that we are ugly and unworthy? How many a times do we feel that we're just a trash and of no value?

Like the second group of friends, i feel, they can love and care about others very easily, it is just in them. But at times, they find it very hard to love themselves.

And hey friend, i don't mean u looking into the mirror and admire yourselves for ur perfect skin, big eyes and handsome pretty face and say," Oh..such a gem like me is TREASURE to all mankind!"
-_-" okay i know some of you all do that..muahaha but no, i dun refer to that kind of narccisstic actions.

I mean, really to love ourselves. How do we love others? we esteem, encourage, pamper, provide and care for the people we love. Can we do that to ourselves? Yes we can and should! hmm..maybe like for me, i love others by giving encouragement! Different people has different way of loving. Hence, i feel, we should do the same to ourselves. If there is no one to encourage us, we should encourage ourselves! People can say i'm stupid, unworthy and of no value. That's very hurting, i can understand, people say that to me before too. But if we think we are that way too, that's not loving yourselves.

Maybe it's the past..maybe it's bad things that have happened to you, disappointments, failures..maybe it's people's unsensitive criticism. All these, are hurtful. All these, are unbearable. It takes time i guess, it's tough, but we have to let go it all.

Circumstances will go away in a moment, we can choose to stand firm to the ground unshakeably and let it pass us by or we can be swept away with the circumstances . We can make the decision.

Love ourselves, if no one says you're worthy, Now, you look into the mirror and tell yourselves you're worthy, you're beautiful :)

Our words frame our world. The words we say can push a person to another level or pull him down the pit. God has made everyone of us beautiful. You and I are beautiful people.

Really.. :)
You're beautiful.

I wish

Have you ever asked yourself,
"What is the only thing you wanna do now?"
and your answer is,
"The only thing i wanna do now is not do anything"

I asked myself that question when i was waiting for bus to go home yesterday evening.
It has been a very tiring 2 weeks for me. I think the friends out there who are slogging hard for exams and rushing their projects felt the same way as me. I only sleep a few hours per day everyday for this 1,2 weeks. Hope my face doesn't become saggy and eyes not become droppy!

Anyways, even though i'm really very tired, but not to the extent of very stressed, i'm still very thankful that God's strength has been with me all the while! Some may wonder, 'what's God's strength?" i just feel that God's strength is when i say, i can't do it anymore but God is encouraging me saying, "Hey myrna, i'll be with you, you will not be alone." Thankful for that :) Also thankful to the people around me whose presence just cheer me up! You all know who u're haha.

And i've my wishlist ready! I wish....

I am able to sleep for 10 hours straight on my cosy bed. And the moment i wake up, my mum will give me a hug and says, "I've prepared a sumptuous breakfast for u!" And when i go to my dining table, i could see my all-time favorite Seafood Tom Yam soup, Chilli Crab, Mussels, Mushroom Delight, Durian, Dark Chocolate Ice cream, Snickers. for my BREAKFAST! That will be fantastic!!! muahaha..after that..i will just go back to sleep till dinner time and wake up to go meet my friends to go Carnivore in Vivo for buffet!!

Well Myrna..dream and continue dreaming..
haha

shall go back to do my school work.

To those who are rushing projects and studying for exams, all the best k!! You all can do it!!

I can't wait for december to come!! Going to genting with my beloved jc peepz! Sompong jiewei sandra Grace kelly Angie Yuexiang, LET'S GO!!

Give hugs!

Do you like to be hugged?
I do!

I love to be hugged and i like to hug others too! but to guys, no please.
I lived in a environment where i got hugged everyday. The person whom i hug the most is my mum. everyday when i wake up, and before she sleeps, i will give her a tight sqeeze!
Why?
Because she is very soft and nice to hug!

I feel that hug is not just an initimate physical touch with one another, but somehow, it just transmit your love, encouragement and acceptable to the other party.

When i was in my lower secondary, i know of this 2 wonderful classmates, Liling and Wendy, we still keep in close contact even till now! My secondary school life will never be the same without them. I remember whenever or wherever, wendy will always give hugs to the people around her, she didn't say much, but just hug, and pat our back, say.."it okay Myrna, it okay.." and automatically, i will just burst out in tears in her arms.

Our sec 1 and 2 class then was hmm...rather unique in a way. the girls are united in crying. Whenever 1 cries, the rest will follow suite! It's like a depression thing going around the class. I remember got once, it's me who started crying because of some personal issues, and the rest of the girls start crying too. Then all of us hid in the toilet, just exploded in our emotions and vulnerabilites. Our chem teacher was so shocked that she postponed the test on that day so that we can finish crying in the toilet. But hey! we are not trying to avoid the test ok. But it is during those period of time when we really share each other's tears and joy..We hugged together, we said to each other, "its okay...its okay, we must be strong.."

In JAMS church, some of u might know, it means Jesus for all Minds. It is for the intellectually challenged friends. I serve there almost every saturday and it is a place full of love. The helpers there really pour out a lot of love to the friends over there. I find that the intellectually challenged friends like to hold our hands, hug us, or just hi-five. To us, it just a friendly gesture, however to them, it's like representative of being accepted and loved. Whenever i go there to serve, i will give hugs to the girls, hi-five to the guys andtheir hands. They will also take the initiative to do that to me. Not because i try to act friendly, but i know this action may look simple to us, but to them, it has a deeper meaning :)

Have u hugged someone today?
Try doing so.
You never know how a hug can comfort a person and you will never know how this hug will mean to the other party.
:)

My family!

This 2 days has been really tiring, fun and relaxing! My family and i went to sentosa to stay overnight yesterday, we stayed over at rasa. So after cell group, i went there to meet my parents. They were there few hours before i reached and they were waiting for me at the siloso beach. We took a very short walk around the beach. And i was quite bored, so i'm like, "Mummy, Pa, can we just go back to the hotel room? I want to slack there." heh. so we did. and upon reaching the room, i just felt so happy! Not as if this is my first time in a hotel room, but u know..it just gives me a nice feeling. i don't know why.

There are 2 separated single bed and 1 sofa bed. So without any agreement or disagreement, my brother is definitely the owner of the sofa bed for the night. So i gotta sleep with my parents that night. In the night, we were just watching tv and talking. My mum and I was sitting on 1 bed and my dad is on the other bed. I asked my mum if she's sleeping with me tonight, and let my dad sleep alone :)

And my mum is like, "aiyah, why not u sleep on the floor?" -_-" i was like "Thanks Mum. That's all i get after being your daughter for 20 years" LOL

After that, we join the 2 single bed together and 3 of us slept together and indeed, it is really uncomfortable to have a third party -ME sharing the same bed with them. I used to do that, but that was when i'm like very small sized. seems like i've over grown.

Many of u all know i've a brother but have never seen him before right? Let me show you his pic:

My dearest brother. His name is Lester, and he's in Nus too! He's very smart and funny in his own ways. He has been accompanying me for the last 20 years. even though we do bicker alot but i know he loves me alot. He spent a lot of money on me to the extend he feels cheated now. haha! sorry kor. anyway, i think his latest hobby for the past 1 year is to come to my room at random times to sing to me. I dunno why. He would like, "mei mei, let me sing you a song!" and he will sing sing sing.."Okay! how many marks u give me?" and i would always say "2 out of 10." and he's like "hUhh..how come so little?" But don't get me wrong. My brother really has a good voice :)

He doesn't like to wash dishes. He said he has made a covenant with himself that he will never ever wash dishes. i was like "Wad silly covenant is that?!" And when he refuses to wash his own dishes, i will carry the whole dirty pot to his room and attempt to put on his table. He has no choice but to AHEM break his covenant.

And we took this for each other

VS

Thank God for my interesting family! I love my Pa, Mummy and kor. there will never be a day without laughter! All the stupid things that we do and all the funny actions that we make :) I will never exchange anything for them. cheers!

YOUR MIND!

Your mind is ur greatest freedom and your greatest prison.

This is what i have learnt from Pastor's sermon last week. Actually it's so true. The greatest hindrance to our success is our mind. But the greatest pushing force to our sucess is also our mind. The power of our mind.


I can still remember when i was studying for my O and Alevel, i can study from 6am to 10pm everyday at home, taking minimal break. studying for 10+ hours a day. But now, i wonder if i'm too old to have that kind of stamina..

The other day, Darice told me about the power of visualizing. You visualize and you get it.

i shall visualize what my future looks like now. 10 years later..

I am driving my beloved million-dollared yellow lambo down expressway, speeding down the road at 110km/h. that's so sad, haha having a lambo yet can only speed at 110km/h. Then, I'm rushing down to somewhere to receive my prize. What prize? still need to ask? =P

"The 2017 nobel prize goes to..the only Singaporean and the youngest receipent ever..MYRNA WANG"

Thunders of clapping**

"Thank you so much for this prize! i've been dreaming and visualizing me myself getting this prize ever since i'm 19 years old. I really wanna thank God for this. it is Him who gave me strength and wisdom to go thru it all. And definitely, my parents and brother who loves me so much. And needless to say, my handsome and charming hubby and my 2 children who are in their kindergarden now. Thanks so much for this.muacks!"

Woah, that would be fantastic! heh...

Give Encouragement!

This week has been busy yet interesting. There're so much to say yet i don't know where to start. Start from the most recent one. My sec 1 tution kid just smsed me to thank me just now, saying she got A1 for her final year maths. i was very happy for her! haha When i first start teaching her 4,5 months ago, she's still a C and D student. She used to not do homework, and even if she does, she will copy the answers from the back of the assessment books. haha

But within few months, she has improved so much! i believe that's the power of encouragement. I don't think I have any special teaching method. But everytime before i go to her place to give tution, I would pray that God will guide me into teaching her. And everytime i go there, i would make a point to say at least 4,5 times of encouraging words and extravagant praises to her. Gradually i can see the difference in her. . But now, she would be so excited about doing maths and started teaching her friends in class.

I feel , Sometimes its our self-image that limits us and how people's perception of us can put a limitation to our potential.

Let us start speaking encouraging words to our friends everyday! We will never know how these words can transform a person's life :)

A beautiful Journey

At the beach
On the sand,
I walked behind You,
jumping onto Your footsteps that You left behind.
Climbing onto Your back.
You piggy-back me,
said to me,"I'm willing to carry you forever."

I said, "I'm willing to follow You forever."
We walked next the water
Water splashing onto our ankle.
Wind blowing onto our face.
All is silent.
We just enjoy each other's presence..

I said,
"You're my limbs,
without you, i can't walk.
You're my light,
without you, i can't see.
You're my purpose,
without you, i can't live.
You're my hope,
without you, i can't love"

You said,
"You are weak, so that I am strong.
You rely on me, so that i can bring u higher.
You look upon me, so that i can move u forward
Your hands is in Mine so that I can protect you like ur knight"

We are walking down this path of road..
Be it that I can't see the end point right now..
but i know He is with me always..
that why..
i know..
Because of Him..
I have the courage to walk on this beautiful journey..
together with Him.. :)

I love you Jesus.

Thank u peepz!

Today is an intensive yet relieved day! i had 2 tests for the past 2 days, hence haven't been sleeping well for the past week, only sleep a few hours everyday. To most people out there, i know u all can survive but i'm the kind who needs to sleep. heh.

Anyway, i wanna thank God i'm 90% done with my website already! wanna thank 3 peeps! Thanks Joel for coming down to Nus from Sp to help me it. I know you're quite bored for the first 2hrs coz you're just waiting for me to finish with my info finding. But i also waited for you for 2 hours to help me edit ma. hahaha. And thanks gabriel, i know you din help me with the website at all,lol.. but yah la, u came to the comp lab to give me morale support, appreciate that. And thanks Liangwei for coming down to sch to pick us up too :)

After liangwei has picked up us, we all headed straight to Bugis to eat spicy steamboat! for the few hours in the lab, the 3 of us were so hungry and the motivation for us to move on is FOOD. The original famous spicy steamboat has a verrrrryyyyyy long quene! i doubt all of us can take it. Hence, we went for the fake spicy steamboat stall the next door. Both of them has the same shop name, but their quene length is so different man.

There are 2 soup base, the spicy hot and the chicken soup. The spicy hot soup base tastes a bit weird and familar.

It reminds me of the stewed smelly toufu we ate in Taiwan last year. it was like -_-haha i still remember when we were at tw, chew yan wanted so much to try the stewed smelly toufu. At that time, 4 of us girls were in a taxi and we passed by this shop selling the toufu. One of our friends, Anna, is very sick. So Chew Yan and Sally quickly went out to get the smelly toufu while i waited in the car with Anna. When they had bought the toufu, the WHOLEEEEEEEE taxi stinks!! i was like,"wah its really CHOU4..i shall BEEAARRR with it.." The next day we saw Anna, and she's feeling much better, she told us, "I was already quite sick yesterday, felt like vomitting. And when you all brought in the chou4 toufu, i felt like vomitting even more, i can't even breathe, was struggling man!" heh!

By the way, Liangwei only ate beef and his golden mushroom, Joel ate EVERYTHING and Gabriel only eat his whatever skin. haha. The food is not that nice after all. After that, we went to "AH CHEW desert stall" nearby. This is really good! u all should try it! Especially its Mango sago with ice-cream. good!

I'm happy today! having eaten to my fill. But from tml onwards, gotta work doubly hard for my assignments and test! :)

SENTOSA PICs!

Here are my sentosa pictures that we all took last week!


There we are:

Our 2 friends are being buried by us! can u even see them? Such a good way of having spa under the hot sun yah. i can't even open my eyes! PLus Azz, Gabriel, Titus, Kenneth and Joshua :)

LOok! this is what i meant. Full resistance heh



Writing "SPONGBOB" after like having turned 10 rounds and roll on the floor. I was then GONG already



hahaha what are u doing quanhan??

Rolling and rolling and rolling~~~~



Here's my team! Cheers!

INTENSE computing!

Grace and I went back to school to do our computing assignment in the morning. it was INTENSIVE!! We gotta use frontpage to design a website! During the 1st 2 hours, we were so frantic as we know nuts about Microsoft frontpage! So, both of us were fanatically calling up and sms-ing friends to ask who knows know to use it! Grace called up her friend and he said, "Huh?? What is Frontpage?? I have never heard of it before, why not you google and type "How to use Frontpage??" " And he asked his friends on the spot and all of them don't know what is it! We were like "You are worst than us!! at least we know what's frontpage! hahaHa.but still, he did research for Grace and sent her all the website and links on how to use the Frontpage.

When i first bidded for this module, my brother, who is a computer engineering student in nus too, keep encouraging me to take this module! He still says, "Heys just take! i can help you do the project, no worries!" I trust my brother as he's quite a smart guy in computer. He first assemble a computer when he was only 12! And the computer is still working in my room now. However, after i bidded the module and settled everything, i told my brother i gotta design a website, and he's like "OH NO..Ehh..sorry ah.. i don't know how to design a website!" i was like.."ROARRRR at YOU ah!!"

But its okay! i shall learn how to do it myself!

HMmm you never know perhaps i can be quite gifted in web designing! muahaha

SENTOSA!!

I'm glad i went for the sentosa outing with the Nus peeps today! no regrets! It has a been a long time since i went there, almost a year plus. i dun even know there a tram that leads from vivo to sentosa -_-"

Anyway, some of us reach there early and decided to play volleyball first! it has been really a lot of time since i played volleyball! ever since secondary school i think. It's fun! Looking at all the different funny poses and hilarous strikes we all have! I think the ultimate funniest player is CheeKeong. Check out all his beautiful ending poses. lol..

After that,more people came and the games start. I am the only girl in my team UBERS and i must tell you, one of the games is disgusting lo! One representative from each team is to come out. Then, the game master, Daniel, says that it is a game of "MAKE UP SESSION" . The rest of the team members are to be blind folded and one of them is not. This person who is not blindfolded, Titus, is to direct them to put on make up for the volunteer representative, who is, yours truly, ME. i was like OH NO..=X Then the materials used are red, blue paints and flour. And i was the one who brought the flour for my team. Its like stabbing myself with my own knife!! Then when the game starts, i was like.."JIU MING AHHHHH" i can't help screaming like mad when the guys start putting flour and paints on my face! And they are not gentle at all please! heh.i struggled a lot and kicked Joshua, quite vigorously i think and keep beating Titus when he tries to hold me still. so sorry guys.. i can't stand guys touching my face even though i know u guys have no evil motives. And that moment is the ugliest day in my whole life! hahaha hope the photos will not be leaked out or not i think when my future partner sees it, he will surely regret!

After that we had captain's ball! i scored 3 balls in 2 games. BUT. the number of balls i missed was so many times more than the times i get hold of the ball. lol I was standing right next to my team's catcher as girls get 2 points while guys get 1 point only when they score. Many times when my team members passed me the ball, it just don't know how, it just fly pass me, roll pass me, shoot pass me and i din get it.hahaha they were like "MYRNA!!!"

After that we had lunch. i get to know this friend from China. He is only 23 and he's studying PHD in Nus now! i was like, "YOu are so young and you're already doing your PHD??" He's from the top univeristy in China and he's really amazing. i heard from some of them that, out of 600,000 university students, only 80 students can go to his universitiy. Qinghua university. i was really very inspired!

i think all of us really had fun the whole morning and afternoon! My whole face, neck and leg is all red and burnt! i believe it's the same for all those who went! haha I'm not those love-the-sun person but i would still choose to go for this outing if another arises!

mindset mindset mindset!!

Today's feeling is very different from the rest of the days. I felt heavy. maybe because for the past few days, i have doing the wrong things at the wrong time. I have been very absent-minded this few days!like..I'm supposed to call up 6,7 guys from 2 cgs to arrange a meeting, but i actually forgot to call up 1. On that day itself, when my cgl asked where he is, i was like..OH NO...i forget to call him to inform.. =/ heh but he din scold me or anything, but remind me that i should not do it again. I think there's when good leadership comes in, being able to guide your sheep, telling her where she has gone wrong, forget and still love her with the love of a brother. i think i really need to have good time management.

I always felt as if my time is not enough. We are supposed to go to sentosa for a event tml, i actually felt like not going because of that heaviness in my heart. Throughout the day, i talked to a few of the people whom are going tml too. oH man, haha after talking to them i feel so bad about myself! like..they are so busy too! And even busier than i am..one of them is working and studying at the same time, one leads a cell group, and the other one is very involved in all the past n upcoming events. And yet they're taking out time to plan and organise this event. I'm like.."MYRNA wad are u doing???!!"haha

haha one of them said, its all about mindset. If u feel u cannot do it, u cannot. i have to agree with what he says but not the way he says it.i shall not elaborate anymore.haha Maybe the person who is feeling down just need an encouragement..like, "heys..i believe u can do it, dun worry too much!" :) All of us need encouragement and i believe all of us should be an encourager. U never know how a word of encouragement can pick a person up ya!

like in my life, i have met a lot a lot of encouragers, really thank God for that! one of the most important friends in my life is Meiqi. Some of you guys may be wondering how come Meiqi and i are so close, always seems to have a lot things to share. It is because it is her who picks me up when i fall. It is her who grabs my hands when i'm going to fall. It is her who says, "heys Myrna.. dun worry, Let's pray. God loves you dearly." It is her who says, "Heys Myrna.. i understand how u feels, i been through that before.jiayou" It is her who says,"Heys Myrna..it's okay to feel that way, let's lift up to God." She says things and she does things. she exhibits and gives her love as a great sister to me :)I couldn't ask for more because i've the best encourager in my life! i treasure and love this great girl dearly :)

oh yah, I told God, i really don't know what to do and i just lift it all up to Him :)Actually the things to do are actually not exactly a lot, but i think it is because of my thinking. I have been thinking, "i am so busy, i cannot finish doing this and that.." and there i am, whining..now thinking back, its so diu lian!

But yah, stepping one step back and look at things, things are not so bad. i have actually much time to finish the things i'm supposed to do. Well, i'm looking forward to tml's outing!! bet it's gonna be real fun! hMmm..shall put lotsa sunblock?????! heh!

EXCITING!

Today's sunday! it's been very fun today! went out with my Nus schoolmates to beach road there to eat. And after that we went to bugis to shop a bit! i'm so excited and happy today because i get to spend $$. This is the last day i can spend as i gotta save up for many things to come! haha after we shop etc, its around 8pm. My friend, Joseph is very kind enough to send all the west people back. among whom are 4 hall friends. After sending all of them back to their respective hall, hahahah OH MY GOODNESS he offered to let me drive his car lo!

*SEAN please look at this! Please be as nice as joseph to let me drive ur car with a willing heart too! lol.

Anyway, his car is a BMW 5, so i was very excited! but at the same time, praying that nothing will happen as i won't have money to compensate him. So i drove, and..as usual,like how i did to my fellow passengers, i frightened him with my almost-hits. And finally we reached the petrol station to fill up the car's tank, he's like, "hmmmm Myrna, let's change over, let's not play anymore.." haha Wells! at least i din get into any accident right? safe driver!

i remember..last year, i caused one of my cell group leader's car exhauster to drop off. haha like literally. He really have faith in me to let me drive his car even though i only started learning for 3 months, haven't even gotten my licence yet. And it is my birthday on that day. As i reversed, i hit the barrier and the exhauster just dropped off just like that! i was so shocked to my max. And i cried immediately.End up he's the one comforting me for the next few days.

Last month i think, i drove Yanghong, Sean and Shaun, using Sean's car. I tell you, i have never heard 3 BIG guys screaming so much in such a short time in my whole life before! It's an eye opener to me man.

So friends, rest assured with my driving skills! it gets from glory to glory :)

To my special someone

I was just surfing through some of my friends' blog and saw Willy, Titus and Estelle actually wrote a letter to their future partner. I was thinking..Hmm... perhaps i should do so too :)

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Hello my handsome, intelligent, charming, spiritual, jovial, humourous, big-hearted, lovely special best friend!

haha dunno when will u see this letter and know that this is meant for you. Anyway, i believe that God will give me the best for me. He knows my weaknesses and knows that you can complement and strengthen me in those areas. Many people have asked me whether i'm attached and when they know I'm not, they are very shocked and asked me why haven't? And i always give the same answer. I still haven't meet the right one. People come and people come go. Through these years, there may be crushes, eye candies and ambiguous ones, but till now, there is still not someone who can capture my full attention. Someone who can make me want to cook for him, wash dishes for him, clean and tidy up his room. Coz i DISLIKE doing all those! If anyone like u can make me do all these..Heh. You're the special one.

I wonder who you are. Whether i know you long ago? or know u only recently? I also wonder what thing we have gone through together. Coz in my mind, i think relationship that has gone through special times, like trials will be much strengthened.

I may be yearning to know who you are, but i'm not in a rush. Because i believe in good timing! haha! Like..

somewhere in the beach,
The sun is setting,
the blow is blowing gently,
I could see no one except you,
The times we went through
All seems to be a fairytale..
And our eyes met.
We froze for a moment,
yet it seems like eternity..
We realized that our hearts are pumping so quickly.
Your hands reach out for mine.
That's when we realized,
we are meant for each other.

HAHA okay!i believe by faith our aknowledgement for each other will be romantic yah.

We may have our differences but i know one thing for sure, we both love God and wanna serve Him forever. Also, i think our personality should be quite similar right?? We can laugh so madly and have so much fun without restraint and share each other burden with love and encouragement.

Hope to know you soon! :)

Myrna

A PASSION FOR LIFE

Wooh! today's a sunday! i've been out of the house since 7,8am and only back only around 8pm plus. Today is really filled with so much things that sets me into pondering. By the way, many of my friends know that i am very busy on sunday, and they always wonder why. so let me share with u my typical sunday :)

haha i went for morning service, then today's speak is Nick Vujicic. He is a motivational speaker and travels around the world. He is really amazing. He is born without limps. No arm, no legs A 8 min video about his growing up is shown. Since young, Nick is really a v handsome boy. When i saw his pictures and video of him, i'm like.."oh no..wasted". However, this guy is really fabulous! Despite not having limps, he can still swim, ride the horse, go boating etc. And the most amazing part of him that strikes me is that, HE LOVES LIFE :)

At that point of time, i'm really very inspired and encouraged by Nick. How many of us love life? how many of us live life to the fullest like him? From the way he communicate with the audience, the way he bravely faced about his handicap and the way he simply love the way he is, are really fabulous. At that point, i was thinking, "I am healthy person without any disability in the physical body, but am i living life the fullest?"

The passion he has for life really inspires me. I believe everyone of us will go through times when our passion for life has diminished to a level where we don't have any vision and dream. Maybe for me myself, i was like that too. Then, i could not see any purpose in life. I saw no reason behind it. I wondered where is my life when i am alive. However, i feel in my heart that everyone is born, no because of chance but, purposefully. I served in Jams ministry, where students there are intellectually challenged or autistic. They are really very nice people :) I often wonder how their world is like. is it simpler? happier? I like them. I like them for being themselves. I like them for being simple. I like them for being frank with their own feelings. I can never understand how their parents feel, the emotional drain, financial burden and physical tension they have to go through. I have a student called GS, he is 15 years old i think. However, he has very weak leg, couldn't walk steadily. Hence, his mother, around my size, has to carry him frequently wherever he goes..and when i go for visitation, i can see how the parents treat their child. They really love them a lot..=) something that really touches my heart. A love that is so beautiful. A love that is unconditional. A love that is sacrificial. A love that embraces the whole child. What about many of us? What about me? Can i love people unconditionally and sacrifically? This is something i have to learn. And i really wanna outpour whatever love i have in me to the people out there.

Nick mentioned in his sharing that every circumstance that we go through, has a purpose in it. This is so that when we had gone through it, we are able to fully understand how it really feels. Then we in turn are able to help the person who is going through it. When he said that, i totally agreed. For me myself, last time, i often wondered why i need to go through those terrible and traumatizing times few years ago. Now I know, this is so that i can reach out to the hearts of the young girls who are going through the same time i once went through! Life has a purpose indeed. :) I believe many hearts are touched by Nick. His whole life is a miracle. His whole life is a message to all that Passion drives our life. :)

After service, i was talking and walking with Gabriel and Niming to the mrt, supposed to meet Liangwei and some of the cell guys. then SUDDENLY! my shoe's strap is detached! i was like..OH NO..and it was like daggling all over. So we went to one side and i tried to place the strap back but to no avail. To me, its gone! I am supposed to be at riverwalk at 2pm for Jams conference. I can't go there dragging my foot there? Then Gabriel n Niming took my shoes and tried to place it back, but still cannot! Many passer by saw and its very embarrassing! so we went to another side of the expo mrt to do the shoes. Then Liangwei and the guys came over. Gabriel, a medicine student, still says, "oh man, We gotta do a big operation for her shoes!" Then the 5,6 of them take turns to try salvage my shoes. They even ask me to just cut away the strap but i refused to. Yen was trying to figure how to insert the nails back or sth, then Liangwei offered, say he got plier, asked if we need. I was like.. "!!!! You brought a plier out for WAD?" then he said, "Coz i'm a NS MAN ma!" heh! After that Yen still needs a scissor and liangwei got a pen knife. i was like "WELL EQUIPPED". After quite a long time, the operation is a success. and Yen asked,"Eh Myrna, so are u eating with us?" then i told them no, beause i gotta go for the conference. then Yen is like, " YOu mean you are not eating with us? Haiyah! shouldn't have help you make your shoes, still tot you're going off with us! I am going to wash my hands! "
Before he said that i still thought all of them are very gentlemanly, but after that sentence...MMmm..NOOOOOOOooo!!HAha

But afterall, after knowing them for quite some time my cell group guys are all v nice..They have a willing spirit :)

Today's really great. Learn so much..
All we need, is
A passion for life.
A willing heart.
A love to give.

:)

PICS!

I just gottaensome pics from Grace today! its for my SOT Graduation. She sent me quite a lot of them, however i look v chou in all the pics, so only uploaded some of the okay ones heh.

It's a 1 second glory, but i'm so nervous.


This is my anointed CGL BoonKiat!



My twinnie n I :)




haha yes shaun,we graduated!



Us again! haha we love to imagine.



I love these girls! Post grad.