Friday, November 16, 2007

You're Beautiful

This week is study week! i have been doing on my music composition assignment last night till 2,3am, it's almost done. And today, i will be alone at home. my brother goes to school to study, my dad works, my mum goes to malaysia to visit my granny. For me, it's so weird to wake up to find no one is at home.

However at times, i feel its good to be alone for a while. Like..we spent time with our friends, family but very seldom do we spend time with ourselves. It is a time when we quieten ourselves and just be you and you alone. Like for me, after a long day of school or play and fun, i actually like to take bus or mrt alone when going home. It's not that i like to be isolated, i dun! haha i like to be with people, interact and have fun together! :)

By the way, some random thoughts... i think..there are 2 categories of people:
1) Love themselves so much so as to forget to love others
2) Love and care about others but forget to love themselves

How many times do we feel irritated, angry and frustrated with some other people that we feel like boxing them? How many times do we feel as if that person who is standing right in front of you is just like a assassin trying to kill you with all his underhand means??

We all feel that way before right? Hey, don't read as if i'm talking something that is so alien huh!
I do feel that way sometimes too, even up to the brim of crying and breaking down. But in our anger, do not speak and do of detrimental acts yah! :)

However, how many a times we feel that we are ugly and unworthy? How many a times do we feel that we're just a trash and of no value?

Like the second group of friends, i feel, they can love and care about others very easily, it is just in them. But at times, they find it very hard to love themselves.

And hey friend, i don't mean u looking into the mirror and admire yourselves for ur perfect skin, big eyes and handsome pretty face and say," Oh..such a gem like me is TREASURE to all mankind!"
-_-" okay i know some of you all do that..muahaha but no, i dun refer to that kind of narccisstic actions.

I mean, really to love ourselves. How do we love others? we esteem, encourage, pamper, provide and care for the people we love. Can we do that to ourselves? Yes we can and should! hmm..maybe like for me, i love others by giving encouragement! Different people has different way of loving. Hence, i feel, we should do the same to ourselves. If there is no one to encourage us, we should encourage ourselves! People can say i'm stupid, unworthy and of no value. That's very hurting, i can understand, people say that to me before too. But if we think we are that way too, that's not loving yourselves.

Maybe it's the past..maybe it's bad things that have happened to you, disappointments, failures..maybe it's people's unsensitive criticism. All these, are hurtful. All these, are unbearable. It takes time i guess, it's tough, but we have to let go it all.

Circumstances will go away in a moment, we can choose to stand firm to the ground unshakeably and let it pass us by or we can be swept away with the circumstances . We can make the decision.

Love ourselves, if no one says you're worthy, Now, you look into the mirror and tell yourselves you're worthy, you're beautiful :)

Our words frame our world. The words we say can push a person to another level or pull him down the pit. God has made everyone of us beautiful. You and I are beautiful people.

Really.. :)
You're beautiful.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

I wish

Have you ever asked yourself,
"What is the only thing you wanna do now?"
and your answer is,
"The only thing i wanna do now is not do anything"

I asked myself that question when i was waiting for bus to go home yesterday evening.
It has been a very tiring 2 weeks for me. I think the friends out there who are slogging hard for exams and rushing their projects felt the same way as me. I only sleep a few hours per day everyday for this 1,2 weeks. Hope my face doesn't become saggy and eyes not become droppy!

Anyways, even though i'm really very tired, but not to the extent of very stressed, i'm still very thankful that God's strength has been with me all the while! Some may wonder, 'what's God's strength?" i just feel that God's strength is when i say, i can't do it anymore but God is encouraging me saying, "Hey myrna, i'll be with you, you will not be alone." Thankful for that :) Also thankful to the people around me whose presence just cheer me up! You all know who u're haha.

And i've my wishlist ready! I wish....

I am able to sleep for 10 hours straight on my cosy bed. And the moment i wake up, my mum will give me a hug and says, "I've prepared a sumptuous breakfast for u!" And when i go to my dining table, i could see my all-time favorite Seafood Tom Yam soup, Chilli Crab, Mussels, Mushroom Delight, Durian, Dark Chocolate Ice cream, Snickers. for my BREAKFAST! That will be fantastic!!! muahaha..after that..i will just go back to sleep till dinner time and wake up to go meet my friends to go Carnivore in Vivo for buffet!!

Well Myrna..dream and continue dreaming..
haha

shall go back to do my school work.

To those who are rushing projects and studying for exams, all the best k!! You all can do it!!

I can't wait for december to come!! Going to genting with my beloved jc peepz! Sompong jiewei sandra Grace kelly Angie Yuexiang, LET'S GO!!