My 20 years of life!

WoOhOoo! IT's 2008 now!! hahaha frankly! i wasn't feeling too excited or anything but it just perks me up to reflect on what i've done in my life! and i'm 21 now! i can't believe i'm 21. It seems that time has passed so quickly that i can't even grasp! I was talking to Liling thru msn and we were like reminding each other how long we've known each other! i know her since i was sec.1, she's in the same class as me! She and her Mushroom head and I and my Lion head LOl I know this is going to take quite a long time but i'm going to reflect on my 20 years of life :)

Age: 1-12 ( till primary school)

I was a rather shy and happy girl! I lived in comfort and didn't really need to care about anything. Just have fun and study hard. During that period of time is when i get to learn a lot of extra things! I got a lot of classes to attend during weekend. Just like how the drama normally shows: a mother brings her child for intensive extra classes during weekend and the little child will cry and feel so stressed. haha but not for me. i choose to learn all those stuffs :) Rather, i feel it should be my parents who feel stressed, coz they need to pay a reasonably much amount of money for all the extra classes, like music class, computer class, abacus class etc. But i really enjoyed it :)

Age: 13-16 (secondary school)

haha i can NEVER forget this period of time. This is the time when i really grow up and learn to go through ups and downs. And at the age of 13, is the time when i had my first relationship. Okay, now thinking back, 13 is a rather a young age Lol. haha but luckily my ex bf is a very nice, handsome, smart and driven person, so it is good memories afterall! :) haha Other than that, these few years are when i went through a lot of emotional struggles..where i have to meet a lot of challenges on the examinations of my own self-expectations, self-worth and self-image. But without these trials, i wouldn't have grown up as a person. No matter what, I really thank God for that :)

Age: 17-18 (Junior college)

SAJC! i can never never forget about sajc! How i love that school :) How i love my classmates S63, Kelly Yuexiang, Sompong, Sandra Yanping Grace (twinnie) Zhixian Mayling Yuanyu and so on! really loves these people! I was like..really really thank God for putting me in such a great place, with such a great bunch of people. All the great memories, from all the chionging of sushi buffets, neoprint taking, mugging to the planning of camps etc..They are the ones who really teaches me how to be myself, how to just be myself. I am who i am, and i'm uniquely made by God. I don't have to become who people want me to be :) And this is when i get to know Jesus Christ and hence from then on, He has become my best friend :)



Sharon and I. These are one of the things we do other than studying Lol Guess who is who?

Eileen, Sharon Kelly and Yuexiang!

S63 girls!haha

My gang! I love all of them! :)


Age: 19 (waiting for Alevel results)

This is the time period where i was waiting for my Alevel results and it is the first time i went out into the society to work! i had 3 jobs. 1) Pharmacy assistant in XX polyclinic 2) UOB Call Centre 3) Data Entry in XX Com. The 3 jobs are tough. Physically tough for the first job as i'm confined to a 80cm X 80cm working place, i can't really move around =X Mentally tough for the 2nd job as i've to face with many stress and demands from the customers. Emotionally tough for the 3rd job as it is REALLY BORING i tell u..i worked for 6 days and took 4 days MC. I am always sick when i'm working there. heh. But i really met very nice people in every of the 3 different jobs. Like aunties who really take good care of me, buy food for me, bosses who are really understanding, collegues whom i can hang out and have fun with! Woah..it's like, in every of the 3 jobs, God really send nice people around me to protect me. There are indeed times when i'm upset because of customers, workload and working condition, but God is really good, He is always faithful :) Through these, i've learnt to become a stronger person and it teaches me that working is full of challenges but as long as we're down to earth and genuine to people, we can break down ice wall between people and people.

Age: 19-20 (NUS)

This period of time is a time of healing! Emotional healing i would say :) for the past years, it has been really great but there are dark times that seems unshakeable. But as i always say, God is always good. He sends people to protect me and now, He sends people to help me get up. All the pain that surges in, all the depressing hurts that come back into my life again, He wants me to deal with it. Where i fall, is where i must learn to stand up. I learnt that, the more fearful we are of certain things, the more we must confront it. Only when we have learnt to confront it, then we can start to cast all fears. If we keep running away from it, the fears will keep chasing us. Praise the Lord :) He has healed me. Truly, He is Jehovah Rapha, the One who Heals :) amen! And there are many breakthroughs for me this 2 years. The most significant one i would say is being able to go SOT, this is when i really get to know more about God's Word, the power and anointing He has actually bestowed to us. I get to know many friends and through their lives, i get to see how they are being transformed and changed for the better and these are the testimonials that are really amazing!

Estelle me and willy! --> Our best team member :)

Sending Kim off. Back to Korea :)

SOT graduation!

One of the things we do during break. taking pictures or going around singing and beatboxing to people! People we know, and people we dunno. I wanted to upload a video haha of how we beatbox. tried many times but failed! So watch it by clicking here :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCFr1-DacXs

And all about Team 20 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Valr7S-HTaU&feature=related


Now looking back at my life. I have never regretted. Because all the happiness God has given me, is really from heaven. And all the sadness pain and headaches i've gone through, is to mould me to the person He wants me to be. Everyday, I want to be more and more like Jesus, how He love people, how He sacrifice for people, how he give up His life just for the people, like you and I. Achievements are very important! Be it in our academics, finances etc . But i feel, it is not the most important. To love people the way God loves, is my goal. I can never be perfect. I can never please everybody. I can never be happy all the time and just sail through my life without any upsets and challenges. But i know that, love can overcome all these. Love, not only comes from me, but is a gift from God. It is not just saying "I love you" but it is an action and attitude to be shown! :)

Welcome 2008!

sunday!

I was surfing the net about nobel prize winners and come across that the youngest person to receive a Nobel prize was William Lawrence Bragg. He was 25 years old at the time only! And the oldest person to receive the nobel prize prize was Joseph Rotblat. He was 87 years old at the time. I was like woah! There is no age limit to how much we can do for mankind yah :)

I went to church in the morning and pastor tan preached about how we should enter the new year. He mentioned many good points and like what pastor said, the way to improve myself is to start changing myself. Certainly, there are areas i'm still working on. However, the results may be obviously magnificient or unflatteringly miniature. These are the things i have to think about and how i should go about doing it. All changes begin with decision, dedication and discipline!

After service, i went to have lunch with my cell group friends.Then, Yanghong Liangwei and I went to meet Kelly and we went to PartyWorld! haha I like KTV!! But luckily they're my closer friends so i'm not restrained or stressed. had fun! and Yanghong and Liangwei disgustingly sang a love song together and look into each other eyes somemore! hahaha Luckily i've filmed it down. Maybe i can use that as a triumph card or something HEHEH... or get them to buy a good gift for my 21st bday next year in exchange for the video! but disclaimer: they're straight! and really nice peepz.

Tml is the last day of 2007! And..i'm going to be 21 soon!! I wan to stay 17 or 18 though it has long past me =X

Anyway Welcome you, 2008! :)

Thank You!

We had our subzone thanksgiving today! Everything went very well and the presence of God is so strong :) A bunch of us has been practising for the drama and praise the Lord it went good! We had only 3 days of practising and everyone really sacrifice and make time to come for the intensive practice. There are around 10+ people from different cell groups coming together for this drama and Yanghong is the director! He is really good, i tell you. hahaI didn't act this year but i was assisting Yanghong and help him and the casts in whatever ways i can. It was a "first time" for me too. As some many know, i'm not a very organized person, but this time, this has taught me to really be very detailed and tidy. yesterday, we practised till quite late and a few of us left SMU (our practice place) at 1130. We were like rushing for the last train home and praise God, we managed to! On my way home, I've asked Liangwei to help me find songs and he is really very effective, found them very quickly. haha he was waiting for me to go home so that he can transfer the songs to me and when i reached home around 1245, Yanghong and i were frantically messaging him online! But there is no reply! haha when i called him, he had actually fallen asleep while waiting for us to reach home LOL

Yanghong transferred me the songs till very very late..around 2,3am. I couldn't take it anymore and told him to call me to wake me up when the songs are done and he too, had difficulty staying awake. haha

so the next day, means today is the drama performance! It is the first time i'm the Sound woman lol..I'm not a high tech person so when i was rehearsing with them with the music, there is not even 1 time i get the whole thing right. i was so stressed!! But during the actual performance, everything went well and for the first time, i got the timing right! i was like so happy!! haha

Boonkiat preached something that is really very powerful and practical for us to apply. He said that throughout the whole year, there are bound to be challenges that we have not overcome yet, but when entering the new year, 2008, we shall focus not on the failures or regrets but on the blessings and victories we have gotten! :)

This year has been really very exciting for me! Indeed, there are disappointments, but i believe the coming 2008 will be an even greater year! I will continue to press on for the visions and goals :)

Blessings to be counted, Thank God for
1) SOT, which i went in the beginning of the year. It's a miracle that my parents actually allow!
2) Friends around me :) From my secondary, sajc, uni, cg, sot, chc friends. You've really made a difference in my life! Especially to Meiqi, Boonkiat, Dwayne --> people who inspires me and they are ones whom i can really trust.
3) Pa, mummy and kor who really loves me and my life wouldn't have been the same without them! all the laughters, jokes, fun times, understanding that i've gotten from you all.
4) Opportunities to work with different people and learn a lot of the experiences and from them.
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and the list goes on!

2008 will be a better year! No matter what discouragement i've gone through, i know that it is the vision that will sustain me, Same goes for u friends :)

Love is a gift

Sometimes when i 'm alone on bus, or mrt, or when i'm listening to some songs. i teared. I don't know if you have experienced that feeling before. It is the feeling of being so overwhelmed by the love you have gotten. The love that is so divine, the love that is by grace, the love that is a gift from above. I just felt so blessed that i'm living and the breath of life is being blown onto me. Truly, Love is a blessing. We are loved so that we can love. Many times we go through heartaches or separation from friends, boyfriend, or even family members. But I always remember the love that I've gotten is poured on me so unconditionally. A love that is so pure, innocent and clean. A love that has no ulterior motive. Being loved for no reason, not because who i am or what i have..But because He just loves me. A love that is so straightforward. He loves me because he just love me. I want to love just like Him.

I thank God because i'm alive. All riches, wealth and fame can't buy this love. I love u Jesus. and I love you all my family and friends.All things on earth cannot buy or take away this love i have for you all. It is a precious gift. A gift that i will protect for life.

Now, i just felt that to be alive is such a blessing. Only when we live, then we can change lives.
Love. 4 letters. But it contain so much.

Jesus Christ, my Best Friend

I have a friend, called Jesus. He is someone whom i can trust, rely and fall back on. Sometimes when I think i'm at the bottom of the pit, He is the one who lifts me up. When i'm in my sorrow and pain, He is the one who calms my heart and overwhelms me with all His love. The relationship between me and Him is amazing . Many times, i feel like giving up, not wanting to continue to pursue the vision that He has given me but He is always there, strengthening, encouraging and showing me. There are times when i think i cannot do it and question why He ask me to do it, He always shows me the answers. I admit defeat. Defeat. Defeat that i cannot live without Jesus. He is my strength, my guidance and my pillar of support. I know He loves me so much and every tear that i dropped, He keeps it in a bottle and every joy that i exude out, He is giving me thumbs up. I dance, i jump and i leap in Your Name!! My leader, my Father, my Best friend, my Confidante and my Playmate! Thank You Jesus :)

God is a God of miracles, i experienced many of His miraclous blessings. Blessings that could not have happened without Him.

Who am i but to find myself in You.
You're the light who shows me where I am
You picked me up from where i fall
And from there, i stand up and testify your goodness.

Who am i but to see myself in You.
In eyes of a child, the Father is always there.
You set an example for us to follow.
The path You have set for me.

Who am i but to be myself in You.
I looked into the eyes of yours, and see your glory.
Streams of love, peace and joy you've given
Into the once-empty heart of mine

Who am i but to find my vision in You.
A world shaker and history maker i wanna be
In your power, i charge forth.
Slaying all fears and doubts

Jesus, Jesus,
Who am I?
A child of God i would say. A lover of God i would say. And..God's lover i would say..

Jesus, welcome to your Birthday Party today :)

I love both my Fathers!

It's going to be Christmas soon! i love Christmas! i love to watch all the Christmas special tv programmes too haha. My dad bought my mum a ring for Christmas and he wanted to surprise her, hence, he had put the ring in a red sock, his own ones. i told him specificially, RED SOCK. later in midnight, he will place the red sock at my mum's bed side! so when she wakes up, she can see it. lol. That's what i love about my dad. He is a very sarcificial person. He sacrifices a lot to provide for us and he has never once complaint about his work to me. Thank God for my pa! So, i asked my dad, " papa, u bought mummy a present, did you buy a present for me too? i want a ring too!" Then my dad is like, "Please, small girls dun wear rings, u wait till u're 21 then i give you one." I was like.."FINE pa, thanks for honouring me by STILL calling me a small girl. " haha I love my pa!

Christmas, we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ :) My Lord and Savior. God gave His only begotten Son to us. His most precious.

That is what i like about God. He does things by being an example Himself so that we can emulate :) Since He gave His most precious, we should too, shouldn't we? I feel that we can seize this opportunity to thank our loved ones for all the sacrifices and love they've given to us! And we ourselves, should do something, something that is precious to thank them :) Like..part my money to buy them some gifts! haha

Late!

I'm back home! This week has been crazy! i have been home everyday at midnight. And it's those kind..gotta rush and chase after the last MRT or bus de. But well, it has been a great week. Have been meeting up my friends and stuffs. When school starts, i dun think we've the time to do that.

We met up with Sandra last night at Village for a farewell dinner with her. She's going to Canada for SEP and is leaving right after Christmas! i will surely miss this darling! She's such a blessing to my life la :) Know her since JC and we always see each other frequently, now that she's going away, i will feel a bit weird tho. After eating dinner, we all chill at nydc and end up forgetting the time and had to really dash across the streets to catch the last train and praise the Lord! We did it heh.

okays! This is my cell group. From the front right anticlockwise: Sandra, Rac, Me, Yanping,Gab, Dan, Boonkiat, Mich, Char and Jo

haha our precious darling Sandra and Sarah!

I went to meet Char and Rac today for Bs. They are such a darling to me too! they are young, only 16 years old. And when i'm with them, the fact is i'm much older but i dun feel the age gap. either they're mature like me, or i'm still kiddy. lol..after that i went to meet dwayne and yanghong at nus. we went to find our friends in the halls. haha had a great time. great time catching up and great time spending most of our time walking and trying to find the halls as the bus services are -_-

Well, i think i need more beauty therapy, can i? my face is going to sag soon at the rate i'm staying out and sleeping late.

God! My Christmas wish this year : Birdnest, Spas, beauty therapy, nice clothes!! :)

Clinic!

I went out with my uni friends just now. Sunyao Liyuan and the rest. haha It is a good day! i haven't seen Sunyao for like months and Liyuan, chang han n Liwei ever since school days. We wanted to go to Clark Quay, one of the pub-restaurant "Clinic". After much walking, seeking and finding, we finally found that pub! It is a really unique place. The chairs are wheelchairs and the tables are operation tables. And the drinks are served in drips packets ( just like the sugar/blood drips). Upon sitting down and looking at the menu, we were like "eEEK!" haha coz the price is so high! 1 packet of drip (drinks) cost $50!! oh man, i'd never spend that much of money on a drink. heh. so we quickly sneaked away and went to somewhere else and yuantai sugguested TCC. After few mins of waiting, we all went in and yeaaahhh haha everyone is so comfortable. Gabriel still said "Here is where we belong" and yes, haha i agree totally. We just chill there for somewhile.

Upon reaching home, i remember i gotta help Yanghong do something and i just finished it. I am so tired and my nose is giving away its signals. But well, it is good to be tired in a fulfilling and fun way! don't you agree??? :)

I Love WML!

Today is WML day! Went to meet liling, Wendy and gang! We had our KTV session. It is fun! They are my secondary school great friends. lOl I remember during our secondary school days, we seldom call our friends their names. We just call each other ah neh or neh oi. No offence or anything. but it had become part of our lives! Even till now, when i see some of my sec. sch friends in uni, they also shouted neh oi across! lol..

I saw Leliang today too. And the first thing i told him was, "did you grow taller again?" I wonder if it's because i seldom see him. but i remember meeting him like 1,2 months ago. Well, seeing my old friends today made me feel very comforted. It's like, we dun see each other very frequently, even for wendy and liling, my dear girls, i dun meet them always, but i just feel very very comfortable and joyful meeting them! Some things change over time but some things don't. We 're still as crazy as before! Recording our beatbox in the middle of nowhere in mrt station and stuffs! haha. I'm thankful to God giving me friends like them. It's not just the fun we had, but it's the things that we had gone through together before, that made our friendship strong. i know, they are always the 2 special friends i will have in my life forever. Nothing can change that fact in my heart :)

The fun memories!

Before i started my own blog, i always wonder why do people blog. Now i know. Because i wanna keep all the memories :) haha Here are some of the genting trip pictures! from Sompong's camera.



Here we are! the 8 of us. The first day upon arrival at Genting.

Aren't we cute?? But look at the really act cute boy there lol.

We and the car! It is so freezing cool outside but for the sake of the car! It looks like lamborghini but isn't!

But it's okay, it's MINE! i shall wei3 qu1, a real lambo will come my way soon!

hahaha we wanna act emo. BUT too misty, so we decided to move out.

Isn't this better??

This is the killer pirate ship that made me tear!!! *BEFORE*

And..*AFTER*

hahahah the wind the wind! How romantic it is! My shawl and Angie's jacket can fly! Can u see a ghostly figure behind?! lol

Sompong is very busy behind. He is the ghost and the wind LOl

Here we are! 3 beauties and 1 loanshark at the back.

We are supposed to take a all girls picture. BUT i dunno what are we all doing at the back. Sandra and Kelly are in front looking great!

Sompong and I. I think he's the funniest friend i ever had! With him, i can easily have 6 pacs just by laughing!

hahaha Look at Sandra on the left. She's one of my nicest n funniest girl friends! and Yuexiang on the right! My dearie partner in crime ah niang ever since J1:) We eat together, slack together, laugh together, go toilet together, chiong for bball tournament together! Grace at the left back, very cheerful girl!

Pretty Kelly and Hamster look-alike sompong!


The level of splasticity increases from the right to the left. just LOOK!


Kelly and I. We were on Ferris wheel!!

We just like taking pictures!! haha love this girl.

Here we all! happy!

Our trip! :)

i just came back from genting! Even though it is a very short trip, only 3 days 2 nights, but every minute is being played to the fullest! 8 of us went together :)

Our journey started at 8am and we reach genting at 3pm. it's a 6,7 hours ride and we sat till our whole body ache but it's worth it! Upon reaching genting, we felt tired, but excited!! After checking into First World Hotel, We decided to walk around and have a good meal to reward ourselves for the perserverance to endure the 7 hours ride! haha Jiewei's aunt who happened to be in genting wanted to treat us dinner, we're almsot tempted to it but it's not very nice as there are many of us! So, we ourselves went to the International buffet at resort hotel there, it's worth all the money! However, my favorite seafood are not there at all. We ate till our stomach almost bursted!

The second day, we bought our ticket to go to the theme park! i'm excited! Before going outdoor, we were in the indoor, there is a very pretty merry-go-round. Just like the one in the korea drama, "Stairway to Heaven", just that it is smaller. 6 of us, all the girls, wanted to ride that, most importantly, take pics! Then we went to quene. Then the person in charge of the ride says we cannot ride. We were like "WHY??!" Then Sandra still outrightly stand out and show her the wrist band! Then she said, "I'm sorry, this ride is only for children". We were like.....PAISEH! Sompong and Jiewei, who was actually right outside the quene waiting for us, ran away so quickly! What a friend! lol

Then, we went outdoor, even though i know i can't play most of the rides, but i still wanna go in and enjoy the atmosphere..muahaha..the first ride that we had is VIKE. It looks seemingly unthreatening, but trust me, it's NOT!! the 8 of us are split into 2 groups. Sompong's team and Myrna's team. They all know that both of us are scared of vike! Hence..the team that screams the most wins! lol..then, when it's our turn, we , the 2 groups sit opposite each other so that we can each other's expression. Then, the safety bar is locked. i'm like..."ARGH." I hang on to Yuexiang and Grace's hand as I was sitting in between them and when it starts and reaches its peak, i was sooooo scared till i couldn't even open up my eyes to see and mouth to scream!! i hid my head on Grace's shoulder and ended up tearing lol..In the middle of the ride, Sandra and Yuexiang was like.."Myrna! you okok!? If not okay must say! You okay??" i can't even open up my mouth and i just shake my head. When everything is over, i heaved a sigh of relief ...it's so paiseh! But it's alright, at least i tried this HIGH element, isn't it? Then, some of the "gan ho" ones went to take the high elements like roller coaster while some of us, like me went to play ahem..Teacups and Ferris Wheel. I screamed like mad when we are taking the Ferris Wheel! The wind is quite strong and it is situation up on the hill so means i can see almost everything from up there. I held on so tightly to the metal bar!

After playin in the theme park, we ate and went back to the hotel rooms to rest as we have a performance by "FLYERS" ( i think ) and a movie to watch. However, Sompong and i are so energetic that we went back to play this card game SNAP, Angie is with us too :) It's a VERY exciting game, needs a lot of concentration, speed, lung power and voice loudness. hahaha as all of us who know Sompong, he laughs as if he roars and since we know each other in JC, i conclude that he has very big lungs! The moment he breathes in, he sucks in all my oxygen!! We screamed like mad to the extent that both of us hyperventilated! and lack of oxygen! As my room is in the middle of the 4 rooms that we have, when we roars, the rest of our friends who are sleeping are being awakened. Lol

Then we all went to watch the performance by the FlYERS at 9pm. Its a staged drama + acrobatics + magic and i tell u! it's quite boring =X I was feeling very sleepy already but i felt really bad to sleep in this kinda threatred performance. I turn to my right, Angie is already nodding her head off. I turn to my left, Yuexiang is already sleeping very soundly. I was like, "Okay, time to sleep!" and i slept almost throughout the show. It ended around 10,11pm and we went out of the hall thankfully lOl. as we are watching a movie, The legend or sth by Will Smith at 145am, there's still some time left. so the rest of them went to take the indoor roller coaster while Sandra and i went walking around, ended up we went to take the indoor Ferris Wheel, it turns very quickly at a high speed! i dunno why too. then when we went out, i was so freaked out that i screamed like there's no one! Sandra is so freaked out by me. She helped me take pictures while we were in the container and when it's my turn to help her take, my hands are shaking quite badly that she's scared that i will throw her camera out.lol Above us is another container, and the guys in there keep shouting to us, "heys, xiaojie, dun be afraid! dun look down, dun scared!" It's super dui lian -_-" I know it's something to be overcomed! Heights. i'm trying :) Then we went to take the Reindeer, it's like a small vehicle on the track that is quite high above the ground and it just goes around the shopping centre. only 2,3 person can sit on it. I felt so unsecured as it has no cover! Suddenly, the reindeer doesn't move at all and it stopped there for quite a long time. I turned to Sandra, "Sandra, can't be that shui ba..JIU MING AH!!" and my palms really sweated like no business. around 10 reindeers are behind us and we can't move! Then, a very brave technician just climb over the tracks and reindeers to the very front to push and move it and praise the Lord! it moved!! haha we met up with the rest at around 1230am and talked till it's around 130am to go for movie

After watching the movie,it's already very late and we all slept around around 4am plus. The next morning, Angie, Yuexiang Kelly and I woke up on time at 830am and are ready to go for dim sum with the rest but they are still sleeping! So we decided to go without them muahaha..upon reaching the restaurant, called "hao2 you3 ji4 " Resort hotel, our stomachs are giving a thumb up signal for choosing food over sleep! lol...we order a lot of food and ate so much till i felt so tortured! lol..but the dim sum is really very very good! We took pics, wanting to show off to the rest! hahah

This trip is fantastic! We spent most of our money on good food and utilized all our energy on laughing and playing like nobody's business! And also, took a lot a lot of pictures! great trip! i really enjoyed it, especially with this group of crazy peeps!And all the stupid things that we do, i love them all :)

My first times

This week has been tiring but tired in a good way and for a good cause! We had the BreakAway camp :) It is really good, i get to know my friends more and get to see their chou3 details. lol..Dun look at them..being so intellectual, or cool, or quiet..it is all FAKE! haha they've a lot funny yet admirable charactistics in them!hahaha

My #1 first time:
I shared my personal testimony with the rest of the 2 subzones on the 3rd day. The waiting time to go up and share is the most nervous times. But when i went up, praise God! my vision suddenly become super duper blur that i couldn't see anyone on the floor. That helped to calm myself down to speak. This is the first time i share my testimony with many people on how God has changed my life. Not many people know my full testimony, only 3,4 people knew while some only know parts, but this time round, i share with them full, but not in details :) It takes me quite a lot of courage to share and it isn't easy for me. But few months ago, in SOT, God already showed me a vision that i'll be sharing my testimony in front of many people and amongst the people, many girls will be touched and i will be able to identify with the things in their heart. That time, I was telling God that I am scared because if i share, means that everyone will know what happened, i will become so exposed. But if that is what God has told me to do, i will do it as he will be giving me the courage and boldness to speak. Before the session starts, Pauline came to me and ask if i'm comfortable with what i'm going to say. I told her with tears in my eyes that i'm scared. She edited some sensitive parts and praise God, i managed to finish saying everything without any fear on stage. That night, a few girl friends smsed me saying that the things i shared are also their darkest secret and pain in their life..and that my testimony has touched them. Really thank God :)

My #2 first time:
My friends and i were involved in a car accident. After the camp break,which is around 9,10pm, we left the school compound and went to Thomas there to eat prata. After eating, our friend, SS, being a gentleman, wanted to send all girls who are living in the West home. Then as we were turning into SLE, a taxi appear from nowhere and hit our car from the opposite direction!! Everything happened very fast and very suddenly! I could not see any car coming on our way untily my 2 girl friends -Cheuk and Yanping screamed! Then, i saw a taxi coming on our way and 1 second later, it hit onto SS's car! Then, we were very shocked. Like..What happened??? We went out to see. The front left side of our car is really badly smashed. the tyre gave way, the light mirrors all gone and everything just dented in. So means that the impact must be really quite big actually! But me and yanping, who were sitting at the back, didn't put seat belt, yet when the 2 cars hit, we were not being thrown forward at all. just that yanping phone flew away from her hands. Also, the impact is really very near to Cheuk's seating place. If either car moved 0.1s faster, Cheuk would have been realy seriously injured. BUt the damaged spot only stopped right before the passenger's door. It is really God's protection :) Luckily no one's hurt. The taxi had a passenger and he hurt his head but there's no bleeding, but for precaution sake, we still called the ambulance to come.

Everything happened too fast. No one is to be blamed in the car. And we didnt know what really happened. Like how come a taxi suddenly appeared right from the opposite side. coz the roads are empty and straight. After that, Boonkiat, Pauline and Dwayne came and be with us.

I just thank God for his protection and miraculous intervention that no one is hurt. Praise the Lord. It is my first time being in a car accident.. So lessons learnt. Please please please wear seat belts!!!

yes!over!

I end my exams today!! i thought i would have felt very happy and relaxed, for i've been longing for this moment, but now, i just felt very normal. In fact i was very -_-" by my last paper just now. By nevermind, i can do nothing about it now, so i shall just enjoy myself for the next 5 weeks!

For the past few weeks, i have been staying at home almost everyday to study. As the land area of my house is not that big - no where to walk about, plus, i've been sitting down almost the whole day and in addition, other than studying, there's nothing i can do except eating! I have been eating non-stop for the past few weeks and chocolate is the most unbearable seducer.

Wells, i am really going to rest and let my hair down and play for the whole holidays! It's time to reward ourselves! :) lalala and shopping is the best therapy, agree?!