My 20 years of life!

WoOhOoo! IT's 2008 now!! hahaha frankly! i wasn't feeling too excited or anything but it just perks me up to reflect on what i've done in my life! and i'm 21 now! i can't believe i'm 21. It seems that time has passed so quickly that i can't even grasp! I was talking to Liling thru msn and we were like reminding each other how long we've known each other! i know her since i was sec.1, she's in the same class as me! She and her Mushroom head and I and my Lion head LOl I know this is going to take quite a long time but i'm going to reflect on my 20 years of life :)

Age: 1-12 ( till primary school)

I was a rather shy and happy girl! I lived in comfort and didn't really need to care about anything. Just have fun and study hard. During that period of time is when i get to learn a lot of extra things! I got a lot of classes to attend during weekend. Just like how the drama normally shows: a mother brings her child for intensive extra classes during weekend and the little child will cry and feel so stressed. haha but not for me. i choose to learn all those stuffs :) Rather, i feel it should be my parents who feel stressed, coz they need to pay a reasonably much amount of money for all the extra classes, like music class, computer class, abacus class etc. But i really enjoyed it :)

Age: 13-16 (secondary school)

haha i can NEVER forget this period of time. This is the time when i really grow up and learn to go through ups and downs. And at the age of 13, is the time when i had my first relationship. Okay, now thinking back, 13 is a rather a young age Lol. haha but luckily my ex bf is a very nice, handsome, smart and driven person, so it is good memories afterall! :) haha Other than that, these few years are when i went through a lot of emotional struggles..where i have to meet a lot of challenges on the examinations of my own self-expectations, self-worth and self-image. But without these trials, i wouldn't have grown up as a person. No matter what, I really thank God for that :)

Age: 17-18 (Junior college)

SAJC! i can never never forget about sajc! How i love that school :) How i love my classmates S63, Kelly Yuexiang, Sompong, Sandra Yanping Grace (twinnie) Zhixian Mayling Yuanyu and so on! really loves these people! I was like..really really thank God for putting me in such a great place, with such a great bunch of people. All the great memories, from all the chionging of sushi buffets, neoprint taking, mugging to the planning of camps etc..They are the ones who really teaches me how to be myself, how to just be myself. I am who i am, and i'm uniquely made by God. I don't have to become who people want me to be :) And this is when i get to know Jesus Christ and hence from then on, He has become my best friend :)



Sharon and I. These are one of the things we do other than studying Lol Guess who is who?

Eileen, Sharon Kelly and Yuexiang!

S63 girls!haha

My gang! I love all of them! :)


Age: 19 (waiting for Alevel results)

This is the time period where i was waiting for my Alevel results and it is the first time i went out into the society to work! i had 3 jobs. 1) Pharmacy assistant in XX polyclinic 2) UOB Call Centre 3) Data Entry in XX Com. The 3 jobs are tough. Physically tough for the first job as i'm confined to a 80cm X 80cm working place, i can't really move around =X Mentally tough for the 2nd job as i've to face with many stress and demands from the customers. Emotionally tough for the 3rd job as it is REALLY BORING i tell u..i worked for 6 days and took 4 days MC. I am always sick when i'm working there. heh. But i really met very nice people in every of the 3 different jobs. Like aunties who really take good care of me, buy food for me, bosses who are really understanding, collegues whom i can hang out and have fun with! Woah..it's like, in every of the 3 jobs, God really send nice people around me to protect me. There are indeed times when i'm upset because of customers, workload and working condition, but God is really good, He is always faithful :) Through these, i've learnt to become a stronger person and it teaches me that working is full of challenges but as long as we're down to earth and genuine to people, we can break down ice wall between people and people.

Age: 19-20 (NUS)

This period of time is a time of healing! Emotional healing i would say :) for the past years, it has been really great but there are dark times that seems unshakeable. But as i always say, God is always good. He sends people to protect me and now, He sends people to help me get up. All the pain that surges in, all the depressing hurts that come back into my life again, He wants me to deal with it. Where i fall, is where i must learn to stand up. I learnt that, the more fearful we are of certain things, the more we must confront it. Only when we have learnt to confront it, then we can start to cast all fears. If we keep running away from it, the fears will keep chasing us. Praise the Lord :) He has healed me. Truly, He is Jehovah Rapha, the One who Heals :) amen! And there are many breakthroughs for me this 2 years. The most significant one i would say is being able to go SOT, this is when i really get to know more about God's Word, the power and anointing He has actually bestowed to us. I get to know many friends and through their lives, i get to see how they are being transformed and changed for the better and these are the testimonials that are really amazing!

Estelle me and willy! --> Our best team member :)

Sending Kim off. Back to Korea :)

SOT graduation!

One of the things we do during break. taking pictures or going around singing and beatboxing to people! People we know, and people we dunno. I wanted to upload a video haha of how we beatbox. tried many times but failed! So watch it by clicking here :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCFr1-DacXs

And all about Team 20 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Valr7S-HTaU&feature=related


Now looking back at my life. I have never regretted. Because all the happiness God has given me, is really from heaven. And all the sadness pain and headaches i've gone through, is to mould me to the person He wants me to be. Everyday, I want to be more and more like Jesus, how He love people, how He sacrifice for people, how he give up His life just for the people, like you and I. Achievements are very important! Be it in our academics, finances etc . But i feel, it is not the most important. To love people the way God loves, is my goal. I can never be perfect. I can never please everybody. I can never be happy all the time and just sail through my life without any upsets and challenges. But i know that, love can overcome all these. Love, not only comes from me, but is a gift from God. It is not just saying "I love you" but it is an action and attitude to be shown! :)

Welcome 2008!

sunday!

I was surfing the net about nobel prize winners and come across that the youngest person to receive a Nobel prize was William Lawrence Bragg. He was 25 years old at the time only! And the oldest person to receive the nobel prize prize was Joseph Rotblat. He was 87 years old at the time. I was like woah! There is no age limit to how much we can do for mankind yah :)

I went to church in the morning and pastor tan preached about how we should enter the new year. He mentioned many good points and like what pastor said, the way to improve myself is to start changing myself. Certainly, there are areas i'm still working on. However, the results may be obviously magnificient or unflatteringly miniature. These are the things i have to think about and how i should go about doing it. All changes begin with decision, dedication and discipline!

After service, i went to have lunch with my cell group friends.Then, Yanghong Liangwei and I went to meet Kelly and we went to PartyWorld! haha I like KTV!! But luckily they're my closer friends so i'm not restrained or stressed. had fun! and Yanghong and Liangwei disgustingly sang a love song together and look into each other eyes somemore! hahaha Luckily i've filmed it down. Maybe i can use that as a triumph card or something HEHEH... or get them to buy a good gift for my 21st bday next year in exchange for the video! but disclaimer: they're straight! and really nice peepz.

Tml is the last day of 2007! And..i'm going to be 21 soon!! I wan to stay 17 or 18 though it has long past me =X

Anyway Welcome you, 2008! :)

Thank You!

We had our subzone thanksgiving today! Everything went very well and the presence of God is so strong :) A bunch of us has been practising for the drama and praise the Lord it went good! We had only 3 days of practising and everyone really sacrifice and make time to come for the intensive practice. There are around 10+ people from different cell groups coming together for this drama and Yanghong is the director! He is really good, i tell you. hahaI didn't act this year but i was assisting Yanghong and help him and the casts in whatever ways i can. It was a "first time" for me too. As some many know, i'm not a very organized person, but this time, this has taught me to really be very detailed and tidy. yesterday, we practised till quite late and a few of us left SMU (our practice place) at 1130. We were like rushing for the last train home and praise God, we managed to! On my way home, I've asked Liangwei to help me find songs and he is really very effective, found them very quickly. haha he was waiting for me to go home so that he can transfer the songs to me and when i reached home around 1245, Yanghong and i were frantically messaging him online! But there is no reply! haha when i called him, he had actually fallen asleep while waiting for us to reach home LOL

Yanghong transferred me the songs till very very late..around 2,3am. I couldn't take it anymore and told him to call me to wake me up when the songs are done and he too, had difficulty staying awake. haha

so the next day, means today is the drama performance! It is the first time i'm the Sound woman lol..I'm not a high tech person so when i was rehearsing with them with the music, there is not even 1 time i get the whole thing right. i was so stressed!! But during the actual performance, everything went well and for the first time, i got the timing right! i was like so happy!! haha

Boonkiat preached something that is really very powerful and practical for us to apply. He said that throughout the whole year, there are bound to be challenges that we have not overcome yet, but when entering the new year, 2008, we shall focus not on the failures or regrets but on the blessings and victories we have gotten! :)

This year has been really very exciting for me! Indeed, there are disappointments, but i believe the coming 2008 will be an even greater year! I will continue to press on for the visions and goals :)

Blessings to be counted, Thank God for
1) SOT, which i went in the beginning of the year. It's a miracle that my parents actually allow!
2) Friends around me :) From my secondary, sajc, uni, cg, sot, chc friends. You've really made a difference in my life! Especially to Meiqi, Boonkiat, Dwayne --> people who inspires me and they are ones whom i can really trust.
3) Pa, mummy and kor who really loves me and my life wouldn't have been the same without them! all the laughters, jokes, fun times, understanding that i've gotten from you all.
4) Opportunities to work with different people and learn a lot of the experiences and from them.
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and the list goes on!

2008 will be a better year! No matter what discouragement i've gone through, i know that it is the vision that will sustain me, Same goes for u friends :)

Love is a gift

Sometimes when i 'm alone on bus, or mrt, or when i'm listening to some songs. i teared. I don't know if you have experienced that feeling before. It is the feeling of being so overwhelmed by the love you have gotten. The love that is so divine, the love that is by grace, the love that is a gift from above. I just felt so blessed that i'm living and the breath of life is being blown onto me. Truly, Love is a blessing. We are loved so that we can love. Many times we go through heartaches or separation from friends, boyfriend, or even family members. But I always remember the love that I've gotten is poured on me so unconditionally. A love that is so pure, innocent and clean. A love that has no ulterior motive. Being loved for no reason, not because who i am or what i have..But because He just loves me. A love that is so straightforward. He loves me because he just love me. I want to love just like Him.

I thank God because i'm alive. All riches, wealth and fame can't buy this love. I love u Jesus. and I love you all my family and friends.All things on earth cannot buy or take away this love i have for you all. It is a precious gift. A gift that i will protect for life.

Now, i just felt that to be alive is such a blessing. Only when we live, then we can change lives.
Love. 4 letters. But it contain so much.

Jesus Christ, my Best Friend

I have a friend, called Jesus. He is someone whom i can trust, rely and fall back on. Sometimes when I think i'm at the bottom of the pit, He is the one who lifts me up. When i'm in my sorrow and pain, He is the one who calms my heart and overwhelms me with all His love. The relationship between me and Him is amazing . Many times, i feel like giving up, not wanting to continue to pursue the vision that He has given me but He is always there, strengthening, encouraging and showing me. There are times when i think i cannot do it and question why He ask me to do it, He always shows me the answers. I admit defeat. Defeat. Defeat that i cannot live without Jesus. He is my strength, my guidance and my pillar of support. I know He loves me so much and every tear that i dropped, He keeps it in a bottle and every joy that i exude out, He is giving me thumbs up. I dance, i jump and i leap in Your Name!! My leader, my Father, my Best friend, my Confidante and my Playmate! Thank You Jesus :)

God is a God of miracles, i experienced many of His miraclous blessings. Blessings that could not have happened without Him.

Who am i but to find myself in You.
You're the light who shows me where I am
You picked me up from where i fall
And from there, i stand up and testify your goodness.

Who am i but to see myself in You.
In eyes of a child, the Father is always there.
You set an example for us to follow.
The path You have set for me.

Who am i but to be myself in You.
I looked into the eyes of yours, and see your glory.
Streams of love, peace and joy you've given
Into the once-empty heart of mine

Who am i but to find my vision in You.
A world shaker and history maker i wanna be
In your power, i charge forth.
Slaying all fears and doubts

Jesus, Jesus,
Who am I?
A child of God i would say. A lover of God i would say. And..God's lover i would say..

Jesus, welcome to your Birthday Party today :)

I love both my Fathers!

It's going to be Christmas soon! i love Christmas! i love to watch all the Christmas special tv programmes too haha. My dad bought my mum a ring for Christmas and he wanted to surprise her, hence, he had put the ring in a red sock, his own ones. i told him specificially, RED SOCK. later in midnight, he will place the red sock at my mum's bed side! so when she wakes up, she can see it. lol. That's what i love about my dad. He is a very sarcificial person. He sacrifices a lot to provide for us and he has never once complaint about his work to me. Thank God for my pa! So, i asked my dad, " papa, u bought mummy a present, did you buy a present for me too? i want a ring too!" Then my dad is like, "Please, small girls dun wear rings, u wait till u're 21 then i give you one." I was like.."FINE pa, thanks for honouring me by STILL calling me a small girl. " haha I love my pa!

Christmas, we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ :) My Lord and Savior. God gave His only begotten Son to us. His most precious.

That is what i like about God. He does things by being an example Himself so that we can emulate :) Since He gave His most precious, we should too, shouldn't we? I feel that we can seize this opportunity to thank our loved ones for all the sacrifices and love they've given to us! And we ourselves, should do something, something that is precious to thank them :) Like..part my money to buy them some gifts! haha

Late!

I'm back home! This week has been crazy! i have been home everyday at midnight. And it's those kind..gotta rush and chase after the last MRT or bus de. But well, it has been a great week. Have been meeting up my friends and stuffs. When school starts, i dun think we've the time to do that.

We met up with Sandra last night at Village for a farewell dinner with her. She's going to Canada for SEP and is leaving right after Christmas! i will surely miss this darling! She's such a blessing to my life la :) Know her since JC and we always see each other frequently, now that she's going away, i will feel a bit weird tho. After eating dinner, we all chill at nydc and end up forgetting the time and had to really dash across the streets to catch the last train and praise the Lord! We did it heh.

okays! This is my cell group. From the front right anticlockwise: Sandra, Rac, Me, Yanping,Gab, Dan, Boonkiat, Mich, Char and Jo

haha our precious darling Sandra and Sarah!

I went to meet Char and Rac today for Bs. They are such a darling to me too! they are young, only 16 years old. And when i'm with them, the fact is i'm much older but i dun feel the age gap. either they're mature like me, or i'm still kiddy. lol..after that i went to meet dwayne and yanghong at nus. we went to find our friends in the halls. haha had a great time. great time catching up and great time spending most of our time walking and trying to find the halls as the bus services are -_-

Well, i think i need more beauty therapy, can i? my face is going to sag soon at the rate i'm staying out and sleeping late.

God! My Christmas wish this year : Birdnest, Spas, beauty therapy, nice clothes!! :)