Me to me, you to you

It's term break!!
or shld i say, study break??

It's wed and i haven't really sat down and start studying, i guess i've to start doing so today, now!!!! Had 2 CAs right b4 the study break and i was totally worn out. Fri, overnight pm. Sat, whole day of amazing race, Sun, Service +pm, Monday, Project + piano lessons + tution from early morning 9am till night 9pm. Tues, went to sch to study for a while then go meet kelly for bs and pm at Powerhouse. I was totally tired! but tired for the good cause :) haha

I remember on Monday, i was struggling to go for lesson and tuition. I felt as if i'm a floating ghost drifting about. I guess some of you know what i mean. It's like, your vision become yellowish, you feel as if you're just floating about, there's no sense of physical being. That sounds a bit eerie. lol. Anways, i recharged myself yesterday! i sleep early at 10pm and woke up at 745am this morning to go for a morning run. Haven't been able to sleep for 9,10 hours already.

I like morning run, it makes me feel refresh. And it is a time where i can start thinking about the things i'm supposed to do. It is the time when i can be with myself and myself alone. There's no one around me, there's no handphone with me, there's no computer with me. No one would be able to contact me. For that 15-20 mins, i'm left alone, to myself and God.

Sometimes, so many things are happening at the same time and the world spins so fast, there is not a moment we can slow down our steps. I guess we have to find a way and time where we can pace ourselves slower and start thinking and planning, instead of chionging all the way. That is why i like to take bus or mrt alone when going school or going home. That will be the time I can spend some time with myself and asking myself, "What i want and What i want to do." We spend time with our family, friends, collegues but how often do we spend time with ourselves? :)

Do you feel mentally tired at times??

I guess everyone of us do feel so at different times.

Slow down for a short moment, recharge ourselves and start running again. The journey never ends. It is us who ends the journey. Whether to end it now or run for the full course, we decide :)

BUT! i say slow down for a short moment, not an excuse for us to say 3 months or half a year! haha, i mean, maybe it's just half an hour of our day :) We need ourselves to accompany ourselves. Me to me. You to you.

We run for the vision

We run for the purpose.

We need the strength and energy to do so.

Recharge so that we can go forth to run for the destination

:)

Give all my friends who are tired a BIG BIG HUG!! You're not alone in all these. i'm with u! :)

I love you all! :)

I went for overnight pm last night, it was fantastic! I reach home around 6am and i was totally gone. I climbed onto my bed and collaspsed there. haha I woke up at 1045am, as I was woken up by ahem ahem's! call =X. iwas like "Who call me so early.............." And i crawled out of my bed to see that it's a missed call from LIANGWEI! roars. haha




OOkies! so today, in the afternoon, we had amazing race! and it's organised by Liangwei, with Clement and Shaun. Kelly and I asked my Sa peepz to join us! Sompong, Angie, Jiewei, Grace and Huiqi was there! so really sa reunion man. lol. Haven't seen they all for so long, ever since our genting trip!! We're supposed to meet at 130pm somerset. Angie came was like "Wah! how come u all look like you guys are going shopping!!" LOL. Then, Sompong, who was giving tution b4 that, cabbed down from JW to Somerset, thinking he's late, and he reached like 145pm, one of the early ones. And Grace reached at 230pm LOl. so Sompong was like "my $17 cab fare!!"




Anyway, there're 5 groups in total. So the 7 of us are split into 2 groups. Sompong, kelly, Huiqi and Shiqi and 1 team. Jiewei, Angie, Grace and i are in another team.


Here's Sompong with 3 pretty girls, Kelly, Huiqi and shiqi!




And us, Grace, Angie and Jiewei!



As there're prizes for the 1st, 2nd, 3rd team. We were like chionging all the way coz we want to get the 1st 2 prize so that both of our teams can share the prizes. haha we went to 5 stops and there are a few stops that are really funny. Especially Charmaine's station at Cineleisure where we have to take a neoprint with the 4 expression. And we went down to the neoprint shop and took! hahaha! It has been such a long time we had taken neoprint! We used to do that when we were in our secondary and jc days. And Jiewei is so hilarious! He really go all out already! all the act cute poses! Normally, he's like quite reserved, shy shy de. But this thing really open up my eyes about him man!


haha we ran from places to places in town. I was like wearing my covered toe flats and it's really uncomfortable to run with it but for the sake for the Ben and Jerry's vouchers, we all chiong le! Angie, being the hockey player, Grace, being the odac-er, Jiewei, being the runner, BUT I, being the gu niang, have no choice but to put in more effort into running. heh



End up...




We ran for the cause.




We ran for the vision.


we ran



annd ran...


And...


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We got our 1st 2 prizes!!!! hahahaha sompong they all got 1st and Angie Grace Jiewei and I got 2nd!! muahahaha so happy!



We were so tired then and while waiting for the rest to come back, we did our usual stuff.


TAKE PICTIRES!!

Thinking of what poses should we do. Normal? Act cute? Splastic??





Okay, we decided, first comes a splastic! haha! Jiewei and Sompong looked like they're so thirsty for the rain! Maximum opening of their mouths! heh. Angie and I also go all out alr!

Then, comes the act cute! We really gotta act.But looks like Jiewei can't do it. lOl

And comes the mesmerizing part! But why is Sompong so glum?? LOl

However, we are still normal afterall :)

After which, we all and Sean and peepz went to PS Manhattan's Fish Market and we really turn the whole place into a fish market! we were so noisy!! hahaha. Especially Sompong, with he's excited, he really laugh like mad!! And the other tables were like starring at us! =/ We ordered 2 big platters and 6 of us shared. and it's really a lot. We were then very hungry but after eating for a while, we felt a bit ni4 and we slowed down in our intake rate. We played the number game so whoever lost, will have to eat a big portion.

I had a great time today with they all. It's fun. We were so high. High in our own ways. The friendships that don't come easily. Friendships that we all had for 4 years and more :)

I love Angie, Kelly, Jiewei, Sompong, Grace and all! :) They're really the joy in my life. Without them, it's never the same =) Too bad Yuexiang can't join us today =/

We just wanna climb up on the walls of our youth. To reach the highest, to overcome all barriers. Here we are. Climbing :)

This is what i called Bravery

I ended school early and here i am! At home at 5pm! :) Had a test in the morning and follow by a 4 hr lab. Thank God it's 4 hrs only! instead of the normal 6 hrs!

I went to NUH yesterday after school to visit my JAMS student, Genny. Genny is very pretty, cute, slim, and petite and she's only 11 years old. She is my favourite girl and I like her so much! Genny is an autistic child. Whenever i help out in the Jams, i would specialize in taking care of her. As she couldn't communicate verbally, it would be good if someone looks after her so I'll be there to accompany her around, make sure she behave properly. As i am always with her and we had the same hair style, people always call us sisters, say that we look alike. lOl..i think it's because of the hair style but i feel really honoured to look like her! When i first started taking care of her, many other students will come up to me and say, "Teacher Myrna, is she your sister??" or not the jams workers will always ask me, "Where is your meimei?". It's like, she couldn't talk at all..and it seems that we don't communiciate, but somehow she understands what i'm saying, she will auto hold my hand and follow me wherever i go. But there are many times when i really got to run after her when she wants her way, like chionging to the cafe to eat her biscuit, refusing to go to the hall as the music is too loud for her. I remember got 1 time, she refused to come out of the lift and i accompany her taking the lift for 1 hour plus, till service ends. haha i guess i went up and down the JW building for more than 20-30 times!!

Genny was admitted to hospital as she had an operation on her backbone. her backbone is C shape, so it is curved out, and it's quite prominent. When i went to the ICU to see her, she's sleeping and her mum was sitting beside her and taking a nap. Conincidentally, her 2 relatives came and the 4 of us went out to the patient lounge to talk. I was really very xin tong when i saw her...Her eyes is very swollen and red. And both her arms and nose are full with tubes and needles. Initially i thought the swollen eyes are the after-effect of the operation but her mum told us that it's because she has been crying ever since she was admitted to hospital. She refused to let the nurses come near her to poke the needles and she struggled like anything. Don't look at her small frame, she struggled so much that the nurses and the mum are bruised. Auntie showed me her blue black and it's really quite a hard hit. Partly because she is in a foreign environment that's why she's so scared..

As i was talking to the mum..i just felt something very different about auntie. I can tell very obviously from her eyes that she is very tired..Yet, there's something in her eyes that sparks.

The sparks that her eyes contain are resilence, fortitude and bravery.

A woman, who is so strong in her spirit.

Even though Genny's brother is a handicap, but aunty's optimism really blow me away :)

Sometimes when we think we could give that person some comfort and hoping our presence will bring them some comfort and peace, but in fact, we are the one being comforted. I felt so encouraged by her. After i left the hospital, i was so touched by her optimisim, hope and joy that she has in her life and her children. She jokingly told me, "I told the doctor that maybe when Genny feels pain, she will scream, "Mummy! Pain!" That would then be the first time she talk!"

I looked at her, and smile.

She's a beautiful mother.

A mother who devoted her whole life to the lives of her 2 children.

Maybe some of us couldn't get out of our traumatic past, our disappointments, our failed relationships..There will surely be a period where we mourn and cry over it. But, there must be a time when we got to set our mind to get out of it. Decide. And go. No matter how big and how small the situation is, we must set our hearts to get out of it. Definitely,we ourselves can't do it on our own. That's what friends are for :)

I admired Genny's mum. I admired her courage to go forth and do what she wants to do. Despite all difficulties, she has done so well :)

I can never forget the hope i saw in her eyes for her children.

I can never forget how she sees a miracle, healing in her beloved daugther..

This is what i really call...

Bravery.



:)

The legendary 7+1!

We all went to Yuanyu's House yesterday to bai4 nian1 but too bad Wendy's not here to join us!!
here are some of the pictures haha Yy's family are so hospitable :) had a great time over there man! The moment before i step into the house i already made many hilarious mistakes! =X "The cliff" and "Uncle vs Brother" Lol. Anyway, here are my darlings!

Back row: Zhixian, Shimin, Yuanyu, Mayling. Front row: me and grace



hahaha in Zhixian's car. she's a very safe driver!


Look at Zhixian's hilarious face! haha i know you're going to kill me zx, but i still wanna put this pic up! LOl


Us again


Me and my beloved Mayling!! We struggled for quite a long time b4 a proper pic is being taken!


Darling Grace and me!

My little princess Kelly!

It's Kelly's 21st Birthday Celebration today!! She invited us toT*** Hotel in town for buffet dinner, together with her whole extended family :) Many of her relatives, cousins are there! haha And her dad generously treated us. it's very ex =X $55 per person. When i looked at the menu and price, i was like.."Expensive". Huiqi Yuexiang and I wanted to have a 10 round course. But.......

MISSiON FAILED!

I only ate my 8 rounds and i couldn't take it already. but it's small portion la. The food are not bad :) But i still think it's not worth to be that expensive.

Anways, one of her cousins, Zhenyu is very cute! haha very active boy. He's only 8 years old and he went to tell Kelly cheekily, "How come your friends so sexy wan" LOL we're shocked! This is coming from a 8 years old boy. Then we did a self-check on ourselves. We were like, "We're properly dressed and many of our collars are high up to the neck" He tried to eavedrop on us, so we pretend to come together to whisper ..and suddenly laugh,

"*&mailto:*&9*$$%^$@........&$%^$%^........HAHAHAHA"

Lol...okay, that's quite childish of us. Anyway we had a great time catching time! Especially with Yuexiang :) Haven't met her for few months alr!

Anyway, Birthday Girl Kelly :) I know her since we were in J1. We were from the same class in Sajc. Really a bliss to know her and the rest of the s63 gang. My life would never be the same without them and the 2 special years in SA !

Kelly is a special girl, I would say. She's not the loud person, like Yuexiang, Sompong or me..But she's not a quiet girl..She can play like crazy but she's always very disciplined, so won't go overboard..I remember I always go home with Sompong Yuexiang and Kelly during Jc days. Everytime Sompong, Yx and I will always fight to talk, coz we just have so much to say, but Kelly will be one who listens more than she talks. However, whenever she's not around when the 3 of us are around, it's never the same! =)

She's very gentle. i tell you..really very gentle :) Whoever is her husband or boyfriend will be just so blessed! And she's very frank. Not like those "eeeekk..your dressing is so weird today! =X" haha not this kind of frank. But frank in her own feelings. So it's really v good to talk to her about your own feelings coz she's not superficial by just brushing off what really happened, but she will empathize. She may not give me the solution to my problem, but she will just hold my hand, and say, "Heys Myrna..."

Sometimes yah, we meet up with a lot of challenges, trials..we do feel tired after all..all we need, may not be the solution, but we just need someone, like a shelter.. to listen and empathize with us..to give us encouragement :) A shelter where we feel secure and safe..Let's us be the shelter for our friends and family..Maybe we can't give them a yacht to sail away from the problem, but we can be the lighthouse for them to stop by and find safety..

Kelly Kelly, the little princess of my heart :) My little cute friend forever, she may be small in size but she has a big heart.

haha thinking back..there's lotsa stupid things that we did together, gorging ourselves in sushi buffet (But Kelly can't eat a lot!! =x) after school, doing our beatbox and trio orchestra. lol.And when we saw our eye candies in school last time, we will be like peeping them for each other coz we dun dare to see them face to face.LOl...She and her *****, me and my Fa Guan(Judge) LOL But that's the growing up days, isn't it??

It's only the first 2 months of the year and i attended a few of my friend's 21st Bday already. Everytime go to their party, I will just feel something. It'll be my 21st Bday next month, i will be opening a party in my house. i want to do sth for my friends, especially for those who has been with me during my up and downs :) Will be announcing somethings on my bday. Will send out invitation soon, so keep a lookout on ya hp! :)

Shall have a good night!

My Valentine!

It was Valentine's Day yesterday!!! haha I was in perfume lecture. And at the entrance door, got this uncle holding a bouquet of flowers. Every now and then, got students walked in for lectures (Lecture already started), so we could see the uncle peeping in, but dare not come in. Then he asked this 2 helpful students to help him pass a msg to the lecturer. This lecturer is a very cute and motherly prof :) We all like her! Btw She was talking non- stop and finally!!! when she took a DEEEPP BREAAATTH!!! the 2 students ran up to her immediately and told her that a delivery uncle was outside, wanna to deliver a banquet flowers to a girl. So the lecturer took the piece of paper and and say "Delievery for R***** T**. Please come down and collect your flowers!" hahaha she even spell out the whole name! the whole lecture burst into applause and the receipent girl went down and collect her flowers. hahaha she looked so paiseh yet happy.

Other than for lovers, it's a day for friends family, telling them how much we love and cherish them too! We had cell group meeting in the evening! A great day to spend with our most Beautiful Valentine! :) It is the first time i'm leading both p & w in cell ytd so i'm so exited and a bit nervous! The 1st time I did praise was during a prayer meeting 1 year plus ago and it was hilarious and embarrassing i will never never 4get how i gave finger signals =X And the 1st time i did worship was during SOT mock cell group, i was really nervous that i don't know what i'm saying already.

Btw For the past 1 week, i've this super big ulcer in my mouth! It's my life's largest ucler seen. It's equivalent to the size of my little finger's nail =x I couldn't speak properly for the last few days. Seems like people around me got uclers too! Even darice and marie, we were comparing our uclers. lol..must be the CNY post syndrome. =X When i gave bs to Kelly on Wed, I was lou4 feng1-ing all the way. Then ytd, when i was practicing with Shaun (he's the guitarist), he played v well. but suddenly, i stopped, i turn to Shaun and was like "Shaun, I couldn't fit into the music. I can't sing higher anymore, and i can't sing lower anymore, how?" Lol. Anyway maybe it wasn't the ulcer's fault, it's ahemMmm..myself. Anyway, I know God doesn't mind, He looks into the heart! :) haha, maybe i can't sing but it will still be like a sweet aroma sent up to heaven :)

Today is the 3X2 hours lecture day. Really tired! At my last lecture, Darice and I become goldfish already. Our eyes are wide open but we were already gone to lala land. Marie is the most NOT discrete one. haha she openly shows it. While Phoebe is the most attentive one. Anyway I think she's able to write down every single thing that the lecturer says coz she's so fast! =) i had "tuition" for physics today. Yes, i'm being tutored, not i tutoring my tuition kid. The last time i had private tutition was Jc2 i think. haha Thank God for the smart friend, Titus! When i went for the class yesterday, i was like stunned coz i don't know how to do the calculations at all. I was like...i didn't learn it before and the lectures din teach! And my physics level stops at sec sch. So Gotta buck up!

Btw I dunno why, this 1,2 week alone, many people ask me about why am i not attached? I know u guys are concerned for me and even more gan jiong than me :) Although I always just laugh it off or just brush it away..But seriously, now is not the season. haha. No worries, I'll keep a look out when the right season comes k! hahaha

:)

Tml's Kelly 21st Birthday party wHooo!!

I dun like headache!

I really thank God today :) I woke up at 630am in the morning and i was feeling a bit weird. I had a headache and i hate headache, it spoils my day. anyway, i wasn't feeling too good so i went out of my house feeling nauseous. I wanted to wear wedges that is quite high but i give up that idea as i think i'll be even more unbalanced. I wun want to fall and vomit at the same time so i changed to a lower heels. I went up the bus and I don't it's me or the bus, it was very bumpy! I cannot take it already and i change to a centre seat. During the journey to mrt station, which is like 15 mins, i was praying to God that He will heal me and take away my discomfort coz i don't want to be sick! Especially after CNY when i 've many things to do! After alighting the bus, i quicken my steps as i've to reach church early.

The electronic board shows " Pasir Ris 6mins"

I was thinking, "hMm..okay, still have time to go toilet and vomit" so i went and do it.

After doing it, i was like "COOL! i feel okay now! My headache is gone and my nauseous feeling vanished!" Thank God for healing and after that, i'm as energetic as a lion! roars!

After service, we all went to have lunch at Changi Airport T3 and i gotta leave early so i left first and while i was waiting for the mrt at the changi mrt stastion, i saw the departure and arrival electronic board. I look at each and every of the Destination places and i was like, " there are so many places i haven't been to. I wanna go to each of these places when i started working! God, this is one of my wishes" i only been to Thailand, Philipines, Australia, Malaysia, Taiwan and..Batam considered?? wanna add on to this list!!! I wanna go around the world, look at the beautiful creation of God, enjoy the diverse cultures and immerse myself into knowing more through real-life experiences! Not just via books or TV tour programmes anymore =X

May be next time i can be tour guide? air stewardess????? Pilot???!!!! haha fat hope.