You're Beautiful

This week is study week! i have been doing on my music composition assignment last night till 2,3am, it's almost done. And today, i will be alone at home. my brother goes to school to study, my dad works, my mum goes to malaysia to visit my granny. For me, it's so weird to wake up to find no one is at home.

However at times, i feel its good to be alone for a while. Like..we spent time with our friends, family but very seldom do we spend time with ourselves. It is a time when we quieten ourselves and just be you and you alone. Like for me, after a long day of school or play and fun, i actually like to take bus or mrt alone when going home. It's not that i like to be isolated, i dun! haha i like to be with people, interact and have fun together! :)

By the way, some random thoughts... i think..there are 2 categories of people:
1) Love themselves so much so as to forget to love others
2) Love and care about others but forget to love themselves

How many times do we feel irritated, angry and frustrated with some other people that we feel like boxing them? How many times do we feel as if that person who is standing right in front of you is just like a assassin trying to kill you with all his underhand means??

We all feel that way before right? Hey, don't read as if i'm talking something that is so alien huh!
I do feel that way sometimes too, even up to the brim of crying and breaking down. But in our anger, do not speak and do of detrimental acts yah! :)

However, how many a times we feel that we are ugly and unworthy? How many a times do we feel that we're just a trash and of no value?

Like the second group of friends, i feel, they can love and care about others very easily, it is just in them. But at times, they find it very hard to love themselves.

And hey friend, i don't mean u looking into the mirror and admire yourselves for ur perfect skin, big eyes and handsome pretty face and say," Oh..such a gem like me is TREASURE to all mankind!"
-_-" okay i know some of you all do that..muahaha but no, i dun refer to that kind of narccisstic actions.

I mean, really to love ourselves. How do we love others? we esteem, encourage, pamper, provide and care for the people we love. Can we do that to ourselves? Yes we can and should! hmm..maybe like for me, i love others by giving encouragement! Different people has different way of loving. Hence, i feel, we should do the same to ourselves. If there is no one to encourage us, we should encourage ourselves! People can say i'm stupid, unworthy and of no value. That's very hurting, i can understand, people say that to me before too. But if we think we are that way too, that's not loving yourselves.

Maybe it's the past..maybe it's bad things that have happened to you, disappointments, failures..maybe it's people's unsensitive criticism. All these, are hurtful. All these, are unbearable. It takes time i guess, it's tough, but we have to let go it all.

Circumstances will go away in a moment, we can choose to stand firm to the ground unshakeably and let it pass us by or we can be swept away with the circumstances . We can make the decision.

Love ourselves, if no one says you're worthy, Now, you look into the mirror and tell yourselves you're worthy, you're beautiful :)

Our words frame our world. The words we say can push a person to another level or pull him down the pit. God has made everyone of us beautiful. You and I are beautiful people.

Really.. :)
You're beautiful.

I wish

Have you ever asked yourself,
"What is the only thing you wanna do now?"
and your answer is,
"The only thing i wanna do now is not do anything"

I asked myself that question when i was waiting for bus to go home yesterday evening.
It has been a very tiring 2 weeks for me. I think the friends out there who are slogging hard for exams and rushing their projects felt the same way as me. I only sleep a few hours per day everyday for this 1,2 weeks. Hope my face doesn't become saggy and eyes not become droppy!

Anyways, even though i'm really very tired, but not to the extent of very stressed, i'm still very thankful that God's strength has been with me all the while! Some may wonder, 'what's God's strength?" i just feel that God's strength is when i say, i can't do it anymore but God is encouraging me saying, "Hey myrna, i'll be with you, you will not be alone." Thankful for that :) Also thankful to the people around me whose presence just cheer me up! You all know who u're haha.

And i've my wishlist ready! I wish....

I am able to sleep for 10 hours straight on my cosy bed. And the moment i wake up, my mum will give me a hug and says, "I've prepared a sumptuous breakfast for u!" And when i go to my dining table, i could see my all-time favorite Seafood Tom Yam soup, Chilli Crab, Mussels, Mushroom Delight, Durian, Dark Chocolate Ice cream, Snickers. for my BREAKFAST! That will be fantastic!!! muahaha..after that..i will just go back to sleep till dinner time and wake up to go meet my friends to go Carnivore in Vivo for buffet!!

Well Myrna..dream and continue dreaming..
haha

shall go back to do my school work.

To those who are rushing projects and studying for exams, all the best k!! You all can do it!!

I can't wait for december to come!! Going to genting with my beloved jc peepz! Sompong jiewei sandra Grace kelly Angie Yuexiang, LET'S GO!!

Give hugs!

Do you like to be hugged?
I do!

I love to be hugged and i like to hug others too! but to guys, no please.
I lived in a environment where i got hugged everyday. The person whom i hug the most is my mum. everyday when i wake up, and before she sleeps, i will give her a tight sqeeze!
Why?
Because she is very soft and nice to hug!

I feel that hug is not just an initimate physical touch with one another, but somehow, it just transmit your love, encouragement and acceptable to the other party.

When i was in my lower secondary, i know of this 2 wonderful classmates, Liling and Wendy, we still keep in close contact even till now! My secondary school life will never be the same without them. I remember whenever or wherever, wendy will always give hugs to the people around her, she didn't say much, but just hug, and pat our back, say.."it okay Myrna, it okay.." and automatically, i will just burst out in tears in her arms.

Our sec 1 and 2 class then was hmm...rather unique in a way. the girls are united in crying. Whenever 1 cries, the rest will follow suite! It's like a depression thing going around the class. I remember got once, it's me who started crying because of some personal issues, and the rest of the girls start crying too. Then all of us hid in the toilet, just exploded in our emotions and vulnerabilites. Our chem teacher was so shocked that she postponed the test on that day so that we can finish crying in the toilet. But hey! we are not trying to avoid the test ok. But it is during those period of time when we really share each other's tears and joy..We hugged together, we said to each other, "its okay...its okay, we must be strong.."

In JAMS church, some of u might know, it means Jesus for all Minds. It is for the intellectually challenged friends. I serve there almost every saturday and it is a place full of love. The helpers there really pour out a lot of love to the friends over there. I find that the intellectually challenged friends like to hold our hands, hug us, or just hi-five. To us, it just a friendly gesture, however to them, it's like representative of being accepted and loved. Whenever i go there to serve, i will give hugs to the girls, hi-five to the guys andtheir hands. They will also take the initiative to do that to me. Not because i try to act friendly, but i know this action may look simple to us, but to them, it has a deeper meaning :)

Have u hugged someone today?
Try doing so.
You never know how a hug can comfort a person and you will never know how this hug will mean to the other party.
:)

My family!

This 2 days has been really tiring, fun and relaxing! My family and i went to sentosa to stay overnight yesterday, we stayed over at rasa. So after cell group, i went there to meet my parents. They were there few hours before i reached and they were waiting for me at the siloso beach. We took a very short walk around the beach. And i was quite bored, so i'm like, "Mummy, Pa, can we just go back to the hotel room? I want to slack there." heh. so we did. and upon reaching the room, i just felt so happy! Not as if this is my first time in a hotel room, but u know..it just gives me a nice feeling. i don't know why.

There are 2 separated single bed and 1 sofa bed. So without any agreement or disagreement, my brother is definitely the owner of the sofa bed for the night. So i gotta sleep with my parents that night. In the night, we were just watching tv and talking. My mum and I was sitting on 1 bed and my dad is on the other bed. I asked my mum if she's sleeping with me tonight, and let my dad sleep alone :)

And my mum is like, "aiyah, why not u sleep on the floor?" -_-" i was like "Thanks Mum. That's all i get after being your daughter for 20 years" LOL

After that, we join the 2 single bed together and 3 of us slept together and indeed, it is really uncomfortable to have a third party -ME sharing the same bed with them. I used to do that, but that was when i'm like very small sized. seems like i've over grown.

Many of u all know i've a brother but have never seen him before right? Let me show you his pic:

My dearest brother. His name is Lester, and he's in Nus too! He's very smart and funny in his own ways. He has been accompanying me for the last 20 years. even though we do bicker alot but i know he loves me alot. He spent a lot of money on me to the extend he feels cheated now. haha! sorry kor. anyway, i think his latest hobby for the past 1 year is to come to my room at random times to sing to me. I dunno why. He would like, "mei mei, let me sing you a song!" and he will sing sing sing.."Okay! how many marks u give me?" and i would always say "2 out of 10." and he's like "hUhh..how come so little?" But don't get me wrong. My brother really has a good voice :)

He doesn't like to wash dishes. He said he has made a covenant with himself that he will never ever wash dishes. i was like "Wad silly covenant is that?!" And when he refuses to wash his own dishes, i will carry the whole dirty pot to his room and attempt to put on his table. He has no choice but to AHEM break his covenant.

And we took this for each other

VS

Thank God for my interesting family! I love my Pa, Mummy and kor. there will never be a day without laughter! All the stupid things that we do and all the funny actions that we make :) I will never exchange anything for them. cheers!

YOUR MIND!

Your mind is ur greatest freedom and your greatest prison.

This is what i have learnt from Pastor's sermon last week. Actually it's so true. The greatest hindrance to our success is our mind. But the greatest pushing force to our sucess is also our mind. The power of our mind.


I can still remember when i was studying for my O and Alevel, i can study from 6am to 10pm everyday at home, taking minimal break. studying for 10+ hours a day. But now, i wonder if i'm too old to have that kind of stamina..

The other day, Darice told me about the power of visualizing. You visualize and you get it.

i shall visualize what my future looks like now. 10 years later..

I am driving my beloved million-dollared yellow lambo down expressway, speeding down the road at 110km/h. that's so sad, haha having a lambo yet can only speed at 110km/h. Then, I'm rushing down to somewhere to receive my prize. What prize? still need to ask? =P

"The 2017 nobel prize goes to..the only Singaporean and the youngest receipent ever..MYRNA WANG"

Thunders of clapping**

"Thank you so much for this prize! i've been dreaming and visualizing me myself getting this prize ever since i'm 19 years old. I really wanna thank God for this. it is Him who gave me strength and wisdom to go thru it all. And definitely, my parents and brother who loves me so much. And needless to say, my handsome and charming hubby and my 2 children who are in their kindergarden now. Thanks so much for this.muacks!"

Woah, that would be fantastic! heh...

Give Encouragement!

This week has been busy yet interesting. There're so much to say yet i don't know where to start. Start from the most recent one. My sec 1 tution kid just smsed me to thank me just now, saying she got A1 for her final year maths. i was very happy for her! haha When i first start teaching her 4,5 months ago, she's still a C and D student. She used to not do homework, and even if she does, she will copy the answers from the back of the assessment books. haha

But within few months, she has improved so much! i believe that's the power of encouragement. I don't think I have any special teaching method. But everytime before i go to her place to give tution, I would pray that God will guide me into teaching her. And everytime i go there, i would make a point to say at least 4,5 times of encouraging words and extravagant praises to her. Gradually i can see the difference in her. . But now, she would be so excited about doing maths and started teaching her friends in class.

I feel , Sometimes its our self-image that limits us and how people's perception of us can put a limitation to our potential.

Let us start speaking encouraging words to our friends everyday! We will never know how these words can transform a person's life :)

A beautiful Journey

At the beach
On the sand,
I walked behind You,
jumping onto Your footsteps that You left behind.
Climbing onto Your back.
You piggy-back me,
said to me,"I'm willing to carry you forever."

I said, "I'm willing to follow You forever."
We walked next the water
Water splashing onto our ankle.
Wind blowing onto our face.
All is silent.
We just enjoy each other's presence..

I said,
"You're my limbs,
without you, i can't walk.
You're my light,
without you, i can't see.
You're my purpose,
without you, i can't live.
You're my hope,
without you, i can't love"

You said,
"You are weak, so that I am strong.
You rely on me, so that i can bring u higher.
You look upon me, so that i can move u forward
Your hands is in Mine so that I can protect you like ur knight"

We are walking down this path of road..
Be it that I can't see the end point right now..
but i know He is with me always..
that why..
i know..
Because of Him..
I have the courage to walk on this beautiful journey..
together with Him.. :)

I love you Jesus.