SENTOSA PICs!

Here are my sentosa pictures that we all took last week!


There we are:

Our 2 friends are being buried by us! can u even see them? Such a good way of having spa under the hot sun yah. i can't even open my eyes! PLus Azz, Gabriel, Titus, Kenneth and Joshua :)

LOok! this is what i meant. Full resistance heh



Writing "SPONGBOB" after like having turned 10 rounds and roll on the floor. I was then GONG already



hahaha what are u doing quanhan??

Rolling and rolling and rolling~~~~



Here's my team! Cheers!

INTENSE computing!

Grace and I went back to school to do our computing assignment in the morning. it was INTENSIVE!! We gotta use frontpage to design a website! During the 1st 2 hours, we were so frantic as we know nuts about Microsoft frontpage! So, both of us were fanatically calling up and sms-ing friends to ask who knows know to use it! Grace called up her friend and he said, "Huh?? What is Frontpage?? I have never heard of it before, why not you google and type "How to use Frontpage??" " And he asked his friends on the spot and all of them don't know what is it! We were like "You are worst than us!! at least we know what's frontpage! hahaHa.but still, he did research for Grace and sent her all the website and links on how to use the Frontpage.

When i first bidded for this module, my brother, who is a computer engineering student in nus too, keep encouraging me to take this module! He still says, "Heys just take! i can help you do the project, no worries!" I trust my brother as he's quite a smart guy in computer. He first assemble a computer when he was only 12! And the computer is still working in my room now. However, after i bidded the module and settled everything, i told my brother i gotta design a website, and he's like "OH NO..Ehh..sorry ah.. i don't know how to design a website!" i was like.."ROARRRR at YOU ah!!"

But its okay! i shall learn how to do it myself!

HMmm you never know perhaps i can be quite gifted in web designing! muahaha

SENTOSA!!

I'm glad i went for the sentosa outing with the Nus peeps today! no regrets! It has a been a long time since i went there, almost a year plus. i dun even know there a tram that leads from vivo to sentosa -_-"

Anyway, some of us reach there early and decided to play volleyball first! it has been really a lot of time since i played volleyball! ever since secondary school i think. It's fun! Looking at all the different funny poses and hilarous strikes we all have! I think the ultimate funniest player is CheeKeong. Check out all his beautiful ending poses. lol..

After that,more people came and the games start. I am the only girl in my team UBERS and i must tell you, one of the games is disgusting lo! One representative from each team is to come out. Then, the game master, Daniel, says that it is a game of "MAKE UP SESSION" . The rest of the team members are to be blind folded and one of them is not. This person who is not blindfolded, Titus, is to direct them to put on make up for the volunteer representative, who is, yours truly, ME. i was like OH NO..=X Then the materials used are red, blue paints and flour. And i was the one who brought the flour for my team. Its like stabbing myself with my own knife!! Then when the game starts, i was like.."JIU MING AHHHHH" i can't help screaming like mad when the guys start putting flour and paints on my face! And they are not gentle at all please! heh.i struggled a lot and kicked Joshua, quite vigorously i think and keep beating Titus when he tries to hold me still. so sorry guys.. i can't stand guys touching my face even though i know u guys have no evil motives. And that moment is the ugliest day in my whole life! hahaha hope the photos will not be leaked out or not i think when my future partner sees it, he will surely regret!

After that we had captain's ball! i scored 3 balls in 2 games. BUT. the number of balls i missed was so many times more than the times i get hold of the ball. lol I was standing right next to my team's catcher as girls get 2 points while guys get 1 point only when they score. Many times when my team members passed me the ball, it just don't know how, it just fly pass me, roll pass me, shoot pass me and i din get it.hahaha they were like "MYRNA!!!"

After that we had lunch. i get to know this friend from China. He is only 23 and he's studying PHD in Nus now! i was like, "YOu are so young and you're already doing your PHD??" He's from the top univeristy in China and he's really amazing. i heard from some of them that, out of 600,000 university students, only 80 students can go to his universitiy. Qinghua university. i was really very inspired!

i think all of us really had fun the whole morning and afternoon! My whole face, neck and leg is all red and burnt! i believe it's the same for all those who went! haha I'm not those love-the-sun person but i would still choose to go for this outing if another arises!

mindset mindset mindset!!

Today's feeling is very different from the rest of the days. I felt heavy. maybe because for the past few days, i have doing the wrong things at the wrong time. I have been very absent-minded this few days!like..I'm supposed to call up 6,7 guys from 2 cgs to arrange a meeting, but i actually forgot to call up 1. On that day itself, when my cgl asked where he is, i was like..OH NO...i forget to call him to inform.. =/ heh but he din scold me or anything, but remind me that i should not do it again. I think there's when good leadership comes in, being able to guide your sheep, telling her where she has gone wrong, forget and still love her with the love of a brother. i think i really need to have good time management.

I always felt as if my time is not enough. We are supposed to go to sentosa for a event tml, i actually felt like not going because of that heaviness in my heart. Throughout the day, i talked to a few of the people whom are going tml too. oH man, haha after talking to them i feel so bad about myself! like..they are so busy too! And even busier than i am..one of them is working and studying at the same time, one leads a cell group, and the other one is very involved in all the past n upcoming events. And yet they're taking out time to plan and organise this event. I'm like.."MYRNA wad are u doing???!!"haha

haha one of them said, its all about mindset. If u feel u cannot do it, u cannot. i have to agree with what he says but not the way he says it.i shall not elaborate anymore.haha Maybe the person who is feeling down just need an encouragement..like, "heys..i believe u can do it, dun worry too much!" :) All of us need encouragement and i believe all of us should be an encourager. U never know how a word of encouragement can pick a person up ya!

like in my life, i have met a lot a lot of encouragers, really thank God for that! one of the most important friends in my life is Meiqi. Some of you guys may be wondering how come Meiqi and i are so close, always seems to have a lot things to share. It is because it is her who picks me up when i fall. It is her who grabs my hands when i'm going to fall. It is her who says, "heys Myrna.. dun worry, Let's pray. God loves you dearly." It is her who says, "Heys Myrna.. i understand how u feels, i been through that before.jiayou" It is her who says,"Heys Myrna..it's okay to feel that way, let's lift up to God." She says things and she does things. she exhibits and gives her love as a great sister to me :)I couldn't ask for more because i've the best encourager in my life! i treasure and love this great girl dearly :)

oh yah, I told God, i really don't know what to do and i just lift it all up to Him :)Actually the things to do are actually not exactly a lot, but i think it is because of my thinking. I have been thinking, "i am so busy, i cannot finish doing this and that.." and there i am, whining..now thinking back, its so diu lian!

But yah, stepping one step back and look at things, things are not so bad. i have actually much time to finish the things i'm supposed to do. Well, i'm looking forward to tml's outing!! bet it's gonna be real fun! hMmm..shall put lotsa sunblock?????! heh!

EXCITING!

Today's sunday! it's been very fun today! went out with my Nus schoolmates to beach road there to eat. And after that we went to bugis to shop a bit! i'm so excited and happy today because i get to spend $$. This is the last day i can spend as i gotta save up for many things to come! haha after we shop etc, its around 8pm. My friend, Joseph is very kind enough to send all the west people back. among whom are 4 hall friends. After sending all of them back to their respective hall, hahahah OH MY GOODNESS he offered to let me drive his car lo!

*SEAN please look at this! Please be as nice as joseph to let me drive ur car with a willing heart too! lol.

Anyway, his car is a BMW 5, so i was very excited! but at the same time, praying that nothing will happen as i won't have money to compensate him. So i drove, and..as usual,like how i did to my fellow passengers, i frightened him with my almost-hits. And finally we reached the petrol station to fill up the car's tank, he's like, "hmmmm Myrna, let's change over, let's not play anymore.." haha Wells! at least i din get into any accident right? safe driver!

i remember..last year, i caused one of my cell group leader's car exhauster to drop off. haha like literally. He really have faith in me to let me drive his car even though i only started learning for 3 months, haven't even gotten my licence yet. And it is my birthday on that day. As i reversed, i hit the barrier and the exhauster just dropped off just like that! i was so shocked to my max. And i cried immediately.End up he's the one comforting me for the next few days.

Last month i think, i drove Yanghong, Sean and Shaun, using Sean's car. I tell you, i have never heard 3 BIG guys screaming so much in such a short time in my whole life before! It's an eye opener to me man.

So friends, rest assured with my driving skills! it gets from glory to glory :)

To my special someone

I was just surfing through some of my friends' blog and saw Willy, Titus and Estelle actually wrote a letter to their future partner. I was thinking..Hmm... perhaps i should do so too :)

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Hello my handsome, intelligent, charming, spiritual, jovial, humourous, big-hearted, lovely special best friend!

haha dunno when will u see this letter and know that this is meant for you. Anyway, i believe that God will give me the best for me. He knows my weaknesses and knows that you can complement and strengthen me in those areas. Many people have asked me whether i'm attached and when they know I'm not, they are very shocked and asked me why haven't? And i always give the same answer. I still haven't meet the right one. People come and people come go. Through these years, there may be crushes, eye candies and ambiguous ones, but till now, there is still not someone who can capture my full attention. Someone who can make me want to cook for him, wash dishes for him, clean and tidy up his room. Coz i DISLIKE doing all those! If anyone like u can make me do all these..Heh. You're the special one.

I wonder who you are. Whether i know you long ago? or know u only recently? I also wonder what thing we have gone through together. Coz in my mind, i think relationship that has gone through special times, like trials will be much strengthened.

I may be yearning to know who you are, but i'm not in a rush. Because i believe in good timing! haha! Like..

somewhere in the beach,
The sun is setting,
the blow is blowing gently,
I could see no one except you,
The times we went through
All seems to be a fairytale..
And our eyes met.
We froze for a moment,
yet it seems like eternity..
We realized that our hearts are pumping so quickly.
Your hands reach out for mine.
That's when we realized,
we are meant for each other.

HAHA okay!i believe by faith our aknowledgement for each other will be romantic yah.

We may have our differences but i know one thing for sure, we both love God and wanna serve Him forever. Also, i think our personality should be quite similar right?? We can laugh so madly and have so much fun without restraint and share each other burden with love and encouragement.

Hope to know you soon! :)

Myrna

A PASSION FOR LIFE

Wooh! today's a sunday! i've been out of the house since 7,8am and only back only around 8pm plus. Today is really filled with so much things that sets me into pondering. By the way, many of my friends know that i am very busy on sunday, and they always wonder why. so let me share with u my typical sunday :)

haha i went for morning service, then today's speak is Nick Vujicic. He is a motivational speaker and travels around the world. He is really amazing. He is born without limps. No arm, no legs A 8 min video about his growing up is shown. Since young, Nick is really a v handsome boy. When i saw his pictures and video of him, i'm like.."oh no..wasted". However, this guy is really fabulous! Despite not having limps, he can still swim, ride the horse, go boating etc. And the most amazing part of him that strikes me is that, HE LOVES LIFE :)

At that point of time, i'm really very inspired and encouraged by Nick. How many of us love life? how many of us live life to the fullest like him? From the way he communicate with the audience, the way he bravely faced about his handicap and the way he simply love the way he is, are really fabulous. At that point, i was thinking, "I am healthy person without any disability in the physical body, but am i living life the fullest?"

The passion he has for life really inspires me. I believe everyone of us will go through times when our passion for life has diminished to a level where we don't have any vision and dream. Maybe for me myself, i was like that too. Then, i could not see any purpose in life. I saw no reason behind it. I wondered where is my life when i am alive. However, i feel in my heart that everyone is born, no because of chance but, purposefully. I served in Jams ministry, where students there are intellectually challenged or autistic. They are really very nice people :) I often wonder how their world is like. is it simpler? happier? I like them. I like them for being themselves. I like them for being simple. I like them for being frank with their own feelings. I can never understand how their parents feel, the emotional drain, financial burden and physical tension they have to go through. I have a student called GS, he is 15 years old i think. However, he has very weak leg, couldn't walk steadily. Hence, his mother, around my size, has to carry him frequently wherever he goes..and when i go for visitation, i can see how the parents treat their child. They really love them a lot..=) something that really touches my heart. A love that is so beautiful. A love that is unconditional. A love that is sacrificial. A love that embraces the whole child. What about many of us? What about me? Can i love people unconditionally and sacrifically? This is something i have to learn. And i really wanna outpour whatever love i have in me to the people out there.

Nick mentioned in his sharing that every circumstance that we go through, has a purpose in it. This is so that when we had gone through it, we are able to fully understand how it really feels. Then we in turn are able to help the person who is going through it. When he said that, i totally agreed. For me myself, last time, i often wondered why i need to go through those terrible and traumatizing times few years ago. Now I know, this is so that i can reach out to the hearts of the young girls who are going through the same time i once went through! Life has a purpose indeed. :) I believe many hearts are touched by Nick. His whole life is a miracle. His whole life is a message to all that Passion drives our life. :)

After service, i was talking and walking with Gabriel and Niming to the mrt, supposed to meet Liangwei and some of the cell guys. then SUDDENLY! my shoe's strap is detached! i was like..OH NO..and it was like daggling all over. So we went to one side and i tried to place the strap back but to no avail. To me, its gone! I am supposed to be at riverwalk at 2pm for Jams conference. I can't go there dragging my foot there? Then Gabriel n Niming took my shoes and tried to place it back, but still cannot! Many passer by saw and its very embarrassing! so we went to another side of the expo mrt to do the shoes. Then Liangwei and the guys came over. Gabriel, a medicine student, still says, "oh man, We gotta do a big operation for her shoes!" Then the 5,6 of them take turns to try salvage my shoes. They even ask me to just cut away the strap but i refused to. Yen was trying to figure how to insert the nails back or sth, then Liangwei offered, say he got plier, asked if we need. I was like.. "!!!! You brought a plier out for WAD?" then he said, "Coz i'm a NS MAN ma!" heh! After that Yen still needs a scissor and liangwei got a pen knife. i was like "WELL EQUIPPED". After quite a long time, the operation is a success. and Yen asked,"Eh Myrna, so are u eating with us?" then i told them no, beause i gotta go for the conference. then Yen is like, " YOu mean you are not eating with us? Haiyah! shouldn't have help you make your shoes, still tot you're going off with us! I am going to wash my hands! "
Before he said that i still thought all of them are very gentlemanly, but after that sentence...MMmm..NOOOOOOOooo!!HAha

But afterall, after knowing them for quite some time my cell group guys are all v nice..They have a willing spirit :)

Today's really great. Learn so much..
All we need, is
A passion for life.
A willing heart.
A love to give.

:)

PICS!

I just gottaensome pics from Grace today! its for my SOT Graduation. She sent me quite a lot of them, however i look v chou in all the pics, so only uploaded some of the okay ones heh.

It's a 1 second glory, but i'm so nervous.


This is my anointed CGL BoonKiat!



My twinnie n I :)




haha yes shaun,we graduated!



Us again! haha we love to imagine.



I love these girls! Post grad.

THANK GOD!

Today is a long day for me! i start school at 8am and end school at 530pm, got 8 hours of lecture today. But today's really great!! i have always wanted to do something, but because of the lack of support, i did not do it! but today, i finally told my parents...that i wanna resume my piano course! YEAH!

i started learning piano when i was 9 years old, till i was 15 years old. grade 6 already. But stopped and gave up halfway because of the lack of time. Quite recently, this year, every time i see people play the piano, i am really very envious of them. Due to the lack of practice and proper training, i couldn't play back the same standard as i did. But now! even though i'm a bit too old for that, i'm really happy that i'm going to resume the course! went to check out the price just now, its $270+ for theory and practical..to me, it's ex! But praise the Lord! My parents agreed to increase my allowance once again to help to fulfil my little wish :) thank God for them.


Really..i really thank God for my parents. We are not rich but my parents are not a miser when it comes to upgrading our personal value. When i was young, i wanted to learn so many things, ballet, violin, guitar, abacus, piano etc. My parents let me learn them all. haha But in the end, after some time, when i had enough fun of it, i would just give up. But they never force me or reprimand me.. I know all they wanted is to let me be happy..Like for SOT, my parents are not Christians and they really dun understand why i wanna go SOT. They asked, "why do u want to go SOT? u want to be a pastor is it?" But still, they sponsor me go despite not accepting why i did it. I know, all they wanted is me being happy.. =) I told God many times..if i am given a chance to be reborn into another family, maybe in an influential, powerful and rich familiy to be treated like a princess..i WILL still choose to be my parents's daughter..To be born into the Wang's familiy. Coz i'm already a princess in the family! How much more can i ask? I love my father, my mother and brother.. :) When i grow up, i really wanna provide as much as i can for my parents. Even when i'm married, i wan to live near them. I want them to take care of my children. I want to bring them out for holidays twice a year. I want them to enjoy life and not to worry about anything.

While i was on my way home just now, i was listening to this song, Guardian Angel 專屬天使 by TANK. It's a very beautiful song. Sometimes when i'm outside, and while listening to this song, tears will keep flowing from my eyes.

The chorus it says:

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁
妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望


Bridge:
要不是妳出現　我一定還在沉睡
喔　絕望的以為　生命只有黑夜


i believe, this goes for everyone. In our life, there's bound to be this special guardian angel who guides us out of the darkness when we're in the valley. And to me, its Jesus :) Some may think Jesus is just a figure that is too far for us to know. But to me, Jesus is my greatest pal!

Jesus, a girl's best friend.

This girl, was scarred.
Scarred in her heart.
Blinded on her eyes.
Wounded on her hands.

She did not know where she is.
She felt as if she's an alien.
She asked, Who am I..Who am I..
No one answers her.
No one tells her why.

Almost every night, she cried to sleep.
She abused herself.
She threw her temper
She messed up her room.
She shut herself in her own heart of closet
Never to let people in
Never to let herself out
All she wanted to know is, who is she?

Until the day, She met Him.
He knocked on the closet.
He told her, You're my Princess.My precious daughter.
She teared.
Asking, Am i really your precious daughter? I'm not fit to.
He said, Yes You are. I know you. You are you.
The precious girl whom i took care since the world began.

That day, the girl gave her heart to Him,
came out of the closet
embrace Him
embrace herself
embrace the world.

Today, the girl grew up strong.
Love Him.
Love herself
Love the people around her
Because of
His love
His acceptance.

Thank you Jesus :)

morning call!

This week has been amazing! I've officially started school this week! Right after graduation from sot, it's just like a transition from a beautiful dream to reality! I was supposed to hand up my biostatistics assignment this tuesday and i've been working on it for few days already. then on Tuesday morning, my friend, darice called and told me that my answers are wrong! i was shocked to the max! i rush down from my house to nus and started doing it with her and Huijuan in the computer lab for 3.5 hours straight! praise the Lord! i managed to finish it on time.From that day onwards, it is like a morning call to me! that NO LAST MIN WORK N I'M NOT LIVING IN A WONDERlAND where everything goes very smoothly!

I gotta start working really hard!! I dun wan my nus life to be just normal. i want it to be exciting and fun! but in the midst of it, i wanna do so well in my studies! :)

DETENTION NIGHT!

DETENTION NIGHT!!

hahaha this was last 1,2 week i think! we wore my school uniform for this gathering! i'm glad i still can squeeze into my uniform, but no doubt i've grown bigger in size. heh! aniways, we had a great time there! These are the Nus LOST!camp peeps. They are lovely! I love all of them :)




See wad are we doing?? trying to prove we're as light as a feather! and can float on the air. But...looks like..my face is distorted in the midst. heh!




This is yuantai! haha he's a future pharmacist, but i think he has an alternative to his career, he can be an actor! U will at astonished by his acting



This is my OG! UBERS! all of them are fabulous!



U know who is she? She's my TWINNIE! One of my fave girlfriends! We can laugh like nobody's business!

SOT GRADUATION!

It has been 2 days after my SOT (School of Theology) graduation! Really glad that i went for it. I really wanna thank God for this. If not for Him, i wouldn't have come so far. If not for Him, i wouldn't have been who i am today. If not for Him, i think i would still be searching for myself. If not for Him, i think i would still be seeking the purpose of my life. Because of Him, my life is totally changed n transformed. If u were me, u wun wanna know how i was like last time. haha During this 4.5 months, i've met a lot of beautiful people. People who are beautiful outwardly and inwardly.

The 2 most beautiful people in SOT..personally, i would say is KEVIN and VICKI. they are a married couple! and Vicki is 3 months pregnant when she landed in Singapore and both of them will be going back Taiwan today. Vicki is really amazing. She is really very pretty and fashionable. really a hot and demure mama i would say. I must say it must be really v xinku for her physically, yet she's a strong lady. Over this 4.5 months, i have never hear her complain about anithing at all. All i hear from her are positive words! really a lady who has both inner and outer beauty. haha everytime i see her, i would tell myself, next time when i'm pregnant, i would want to be like her! be a hot n beautiful mama. I believe the child of Kevin and Vicki will be an awesome one!

Well, this 4.5 months in sot is really a time where all of time are trained! and of coz disciplined! heh. all the thousand words assignments, tests, activities really challenged us to expand our capacity. And it does! I am now trained to sleep for 5,6 hours and am still alive the next day. And also, to put my best in every i do. This is really important. At times, we think we could just lay back, thinking that by luck or miracle, we would do well. But NO! doesn't work. tried and experienced before aready. haha so let's all not just hope that good results will fall down from the sky :)

Went to send one of my team members off just now, Kim :) He's a very nice Korea man. He really loves his wife and children. When Kim just came to singapore to join us for sot, he rather reserved, conservative and quiet. But over these 4.5 months, we could see a big change in him! haha he become really bold, active and fun loving! he's really a joy to us. And really wish him all the best, that he will emerge as a great leader in korea soon.

As for me, there's so much i wanna achieve, so much i wanna do, so much i wanna say. Shall share it another day

Life is so beautiful.
The sun in the universe shines so brightly
Yet our eyes are not blinded.
Because of the it, we are warmed by love
and heated by joy peace and hope

When we look at the sun
all we can see is light and nothing else
BUt when we turn away from it
we can only see darkness
our shadow..
ourselves..
Nothing else..

I decided
I will follow the sun
Not to run away from it
But to run towards it..

:)